I’ll never know what is it that is hurting you so that is the cause of you being so low and suicide has become a friend.
Life was meant to be more than just to die and that is why I write my words to you.
The pain caused your head to think like this and it caused a depression to come into existence. Why would you want the pain to stay? Just call out to God and allow Him His way.
Then you can just like me know what it means to be free from the pain that filled your life when you realize that He is not who you thought He was.
At first it is difficult for you don’t know what’s going on but if you hold on you in time will understand why He did what He did.