He whispered live and so I came to be
His hands reached out as I took tentative steps in the direction in which He beckoned me
His spirit trailed me as I journeyed through the valley’s of despair,as I mounted the hill of trials and drowned in the ocean of sorrow
His embrace became my home
His heart is all I ever seek
His presence is my sustenance
He who seeks me amongst the crowd
He who loves me without cause
He who clothes me when I am stripped of my courage
He who crowned me when I was nought

I want you to know that I know who I am,not who you have made me out to be
I’m done being the bridge over which you cross nor will I be the brooke from which you derive your sustenance
I will not be purged by your lack of acknowledgement nor will I be starved of the love which I so clearly deserve
I exorcise myself from you
I resurrect myself from that which has kept me buried for too long
I inhale in my new scent
I embrace my new found heart
I lean into a deep sitted courage
I have become ME

As I cast my thoughts to the past
I will to retrieve those spoken words
That tainted and scarred my memories of you
To bury them so deep that they cannot be exhumed
To banish them from the minds that nurtured them
I will to paint over the canvass of my sins
To behold a scene of rebirth
I will to be a new entity
One of light,love and serenity

Bundled up in the crevices of your heart
No sound,nor taste or smell
No remembrance of what was
Or what ought to have been
Here I remain
Hoping my fire ignites your soul
Praying my essence inspires your journey
Loving you irrevocably
Till then
This is where I will stay
For this is where my end is

These feels halt me in motion
Through obscurity they define you
Pre-meditated thoughts clamour to embrace you
My body groans to feel you
Drowning in your essence
Set ablaze by your presence
These feels halt me in motion

I am deserving of a bit more
I need more
To be wanted wholly not partially
Not at your convenience
Not when it is an aid to your means
To be desired
To be cared for and cherished
Adore me
Seek me and never leave me
Pray for me
To be protected,shielded from all sorts of hurt
I am deserving of more

Hush,do not utter a word
For every syllable is laced with your poisonous deceit
Refrain from pouring forth empty entices
Withhold yourself from conjouring disappointment
Peace,hold your tongue
The source of my anguish

I see you, You see me
Yet we don’t see each other
We hide behind veils of pretense
Yet conjure ungrounded opinions
No acknowledgment is required
But clarity is needed
I’m wrong, You’re wrong
Both at fault
Abominable pride restrains
The words tipping on my tongue
So we carry on
I see you,You see me
Yet we choose not to see each other

Stop lingering in my thoughts
Cease from abiding in my dreams
Let me go, let me be
These stirrings in my heart
Folly on my part
Silent conflict raging through my mind
Restless whispers clawing out my mouth
Let me go, let me be
I have nothing to offer thee

Turmoil, as to how I came to be
Because I ceased to be
Existing within a perfect flawed state of being
Looking at the reflection of what I ought to be
Not who I am meant to be
Bordered on the good-bad, of what it means to be me
Lingering on the truth presented before me
I grapple to distinguish opinion to fact
A pity,
For I feel but a sham of what I am supposed to be