I want you to know that I know who I am,not who you have made me out to be
I’m done being the bridge over which you cross nor will I be the brooke from which you derive your sustenance
I will not be purged by your lack of acknowledgement nor will I be starved of the love which I so clearly deserve
I exorcise myself from you
I resurrect myself from that which has kept me buried for too long
I inhale in my new scent
I embrace my new found heart
I lean into a deep sitted courage
I have become ME
Archives for June 2017
A tale of heartbreak
Retrospection
As I cast my thoughts to the past
I will to retrieve those spoken words
That tainted and scarred my memories of you
To bury them so deep that they cannot be exhumed
To banish them from the minds that nurtured them
I will to paint over the canvass of my sins
To behold a scene of rebirth
I will to be a new entity
One of light,love and serenity
The Wait
Bundled up in the crevices of your heart
No sound,nor taste or smell
No remembrance of what was
Or what ought to have been
Here I remain
Hoping my fire ignites your soul
Praying my essence inspires your journey
Loving you irrevocably
Till then
This is where I will stay
For this is where my end is
FEELS
These feels halt me in motion
Through obscurity they define you
Pre-meditated thoughts clamour to embrace you
My body groans to feel you
Drowning in your essence
Set ablaze by your presence
These feels halt me in motion
DESERVING
I am deserving of a bit more
I need more
To be wanted wholly not partially
Not at your convenience
Not when it is an aid to your means
To be desired
To be cared for and cherished
Adore me
Seek me and never leave me
Pray for me
To be protected,shielded from all sorts of hurt
I am deserving of more
Dear Teen
Dear Teen I Want To Speak To You. I Know What It Is That You Must Go Through. It Is Where I’ve Been.
It Seems That You Are All Alone In Your Confusion But I Can Tell You There’s A Solution – You Are A Jewel In The Creation Crown -.
Your Life Is Like That Of A Boat Tossed From Side To Side For You There Is No Light All You Can Feel Is This Uncertainty.
But You Can Ask Me And I Will Tell You That If You Can Hope In God He Will Help You Through…
We All Were Teenagers We All Felt That We Wouldn’t Reach Adulthood But It Was God Who Stood By Us And Helped Us Through Our Teens.
You Have Cried Yourself To Sleep
You Have Cried Yourself To Sleep It Is The Hurt That Continually Creep Like A Criminal Into Your Heart And You Can’t Even Remember When It First Had It’s Start.
All You Know Is That It Is What Hurts The Most For The Pain Is The Only Reality There Is That You Must Face Daily.
The Pain Of Wanting Their Acceptance But Instead Only Receiving Their Words And Cruel Glance Waiting For Only A Chance That They Would Not Use Their Words When They Speak.
It Is Acceptance That You Seek And If You Are Waiting For Them You Will Never Get It But Let Me Tell You That You Are Accepted.
The One Who Made You Accepted And Loves You For Who You Are. To Them You Might Be A Mistake But To God You Are His Own Special Piece Of Art.
You Feel Like Giving Up
You Feel Like Giving Up Your Tears Are Flowing Like A Tap And Somehow It Never Will Stop For Their Words Continue.
They Are The One’s Who Have Hurt You With The Years It Was Them Who Caused Your Fears To Be The Only Realities You Know.
This Is The Situation You Are Facing An Individual Without Purpose Who’s Birth Is No Mistake And With This You Have To Start Your Own Life.
You Are Filled With All The Hurt Of An Individual Who Is Longing For Just A Little Bit Acceptance, Only Wanting A Chance.
Wanting To Know What Being Understood Means Running Into Someone’s Arms Feeling The Warmth Of Their Love That In Time Will Take All The Pain Away.
You Are Someone
You Are Someone Looking For Direction Someone Just Like Me For I Too Was Where You Are And It Is The Worst Place To Be.
It Is Your Soul That Is Longing For The Freedom From The Bondage It Is In And Only God Can Give That To You.
Your Soul Needs To Be Freed But You First Have To See The Need For God In Your Life And Then Allow Him To Free You.
That Freedom Is Only A Prayer Away And Only When You Invite God To Stay Will Your Soul Find The Peace That You Currently Can’t Find.
I Know What Direction I Went With Sin And I Know What Direction I Am Currently Going In Now That I Found God And He Has Set My Soul Free.
Hush
Hush,do not utter a word
For every syllable is laced with your poisonous deceit
Refrain from pouring forth empty entices
Withhold yourself from conjouring disappointment
Peace,hold your tongue
The source of my anguish
