Archives for October 2013

Everyday is a different struggle;

In fear never knowing when God’s going to call my number;

Trying to stay straight but this sinful life got my soul in trouble;

Rising from one fall but another one just makes me stumble;

 

On the narrow road for a while but then I fall off cause my enemies lay it on me double;

The only one who ever really had my back was my mother;

Asking God when will I rise from my sleeping slumber;

Yet another love bullet just trying to recover;

 

There’s only one me and there will never be another;

All I’m asking is to appreciate me and not judge my life cause I’m your brother;

Thug life living but inside I’m a lover;

Believe me I understand your struggle;

 

It’s a life I once used to suffer;

Found in pain the key to success is to speak the truth;

I’m here a fearless soilder to remove the fake and to educate misguided youth;

I’m the mind who’s going to spark this move;

 

Most hate me and many seem to accuse;

I’m bieng me to help those that life has abused;

To stop death before it takes you too soon;

Just cause I was born white don’t mean I didn’t struggle too;

 

Time to change your point of view;

I lived a hard life that all can relate too;

Never had an easy life and was never fed from that “golden spoon”;

Never had a father who cared so I mad it on my own, but it’s all good;

 

I made it regardless of the fact that I was a sibling of the hood;

I woundn’t change one thing I’ve been through;

I’d do it all over just the same if I could;

It made me who I am and that’s the truth;

 

So if God gave me the chance to fix all my past bullshit;

I’d kindly refuse;

Cause I made it even though I was born to loose;

Just cause I was born white never meant I had it all good;

 

Life don’t see race, colour or creed, it does what it wants too;

So don’t get it confused;

The best poker players win with the worst cards, so accept the hand that was dealt to you;

Take it from one who made it, all you need to do is be the real you;

 

Be who God made you;

Stop trying to be somone new;

Cause the only one that’s affected at the end of the day is you;

I speak from experience, I used to be that fool;

 

Impressing people don’t matter, cause when you pass it’s just God and you;

He never makes mistakes that’s the real truth;

He made you with flaws and all for a reason;

Being who you were born to be is the key to real freedom….

 

Sometimes I feel like I have the victory
Sometimes I feel like I’ve lost.
Sometimes I take on life with confidence
Sometimes the consequences come with too much of a cost.

I want to be strong and be able to stand firm.
But the attacks that come my way are strong as hell.
I put my trust in the Saviour and take him at his word.
But when I face the enemy those words become a ringing lull.

I watch as others go on with their lives.
And mine stands still……
I watch as others laugh and enjoy life.
And my confidence stoops to nil

It’s time to say goodbye;

Time to give back your pretty wings so you can fly;

So you can see how it is to be free even though I wish you’d stay mine;

Forcing love would be a crime;

 

But if this love is true, it will change your mind;

And hopefully you’ll fly back to me sometime;

I want you to be happy, don’t worry girl I’ll be fine;

I’ve endured things most men haven’t survived;

 

I’d rather be without you than see you cry;

I’d rather be honest than live a lie;

We can still remain friends if you’d like;

Just give me some time to sort out my life;

 

When I’m ready I’ll give you the sign;

Go on so long and find your Mr right;

All we can say is we tried;

It’s not our fault love has died;

 

Maybe I could have done more to change your mind;

But I’ll rather let you be happy than a prisoner of mine;

I’ll get used to bieng alone at night;

I’ll find another reason to wear my smile;

 

I’ll cherish the memories and all our good times ;

Don’t you worry I’m used to hearing goodbye;

I’ve become accustomed to it during my life;

If we are meant to be I’m sure you’ll be my future wife;

 

I’ll find inspiration in other ways;

Move on and forget about our yesterdays;

You deserve the best anyway;

But I’ll sure miss you alot babe;

 

I’m sory it was not enough, this is how I was made;

I’ll be fine trust me as I say;

Tears are but for a moment and can be wiped away;

Don’t let the tear stains on my face stand in your way;

 

I can’t predict the future but I pray you’ll return someday;

I’ll always be here waiting in the same place;

My love for you will never fade;

I might have found someone new but you could never be replaced;

 

She’s here to take up time until you come and re-claim your place…

It’s time for a change;

Time to show love and reduce hate;

Babies aren’t born to hate any race;

It’s learnt in a family home, so let’s turn the page;

 

I know it’s hard to do;

But it all starts with one person, let that person be you;

Let’s get a new attitude;

We were all born different that’s the truth;

 

Skin colour has never defined an individual;

Personality was given from God above;

Let’s see past the outer layer and learn to love;

I was never one too judge;

 

But I hated my own white nation for what they had done;

They destroyed this beautiful South Africa of ours;

They did it out of pride and fear just because;

I was raised by my domestic and she taught me true love;

 

She taught me her native tongue;

Always said I’d need it one day when I’m grown;

She equipped me for the future, little did I even know;

So from young I was one up on everyone;

 

Always a step ahead;

All the white people said I had betrayed them;Little did they know they would one day look up to me to teach them;

Jobs came so easy cause I knew an African speech;

 

Threw away by my own nation, but now I was envied;

I am not saying that I am better, I’m saying God was looking out for me;

Young at age so He sent me Heavens teaching;

Time for a change;

 

Let’s start today;

It’s not about changing your culture that’s not what I’m saying;

It’s about enpowering your kids to live is this diverse nation;

Just consider what I say;

 

Cause I’m living proof that to succed is all based on your ability to adapt to change….

Jesus thank You for the furnace, thank You for the flame;

Thank You for the tears, lonely nights and pain;

I hated You then but I thank You today;

Lessons learnt in yesterday;

 

Equipped me to help Your people avoid my mistakes;

You taught me to overcome so Your people could be saved;

I cried tears, took the scars so they never have to endure the same;

How much You love them, that You had them in mind when I suffered that way;

 

If they only knew your goodness, cause me you’ve never once failed;

When there was no way, you made a way;

What the world considered impossible, You called a 2 piece puzzle when I prayed;

Your foolishness is wiser than any man’s knowledge anyway;

 

Lord I never thought I could fall in love with You;

Your grace and mercy even when I hurt You everyday made falling for You easy to do;

To think You chose me before I was born, when I always thought I chose You;

Just at a whisper of Your name and You move Heaven and earth and run to me;

 

When I feel most alone on earth You remind me You’ll never leave;

When I cry You catch every tear;

To show me one day how much You cared when we meet;

It’s those little things You do that never cease to amaze me;

 

I’ve had money cars and life’s finer things;

But grace and mercy is the real reason  I’m rich;

Just cause I’m saved don’t mean I’m perfect;

Your name is Rabbi, meaning teacher, so me You’re forever changing;

 

World said I’ll always be the same;

But I had an ACE up my sleeve and Jesus is His name;

Your speciality is broken people so I could never stay the same;

What the world considered impossible, you called nothing the day I got saved;

 

Father thank You for the fire, the pain and tears everyday;

You love them so chose me to be the sacrifice to save Your children someday;

If they only knew Your love, don’t worry I’ll show them the way;

Lord so when we meet I just want to thank You for all the hurt cause it made me the man I am today…..

was a young fool;

The day I first met you;

Should have been open and told you the truth;

You didn’t deserve all the pain I put you through;

 

The day you walked away I lost my once in a lifetime, I instantly knew;

Replacing you was going to be impossible to do;

Never the less I tried and had a few after you;

Year after endless year slowly I was realising;

 

I miss the little things you used to do;

Things you thought I never saw;

Things that haunt me now and I wish I appreciated them much more;

To God I pleaded to undo the hurt and love to restore;

 

To give me a chance to show you I’ve changed and not who you knew before;

More years passed and you tied the knot, I lost all hope;

But something in my heart refused and love for you I felt it grow;

God heard my cries and now we are friends once more;

 

I understand the value of loosing you, so friends is all I could’ve asked for;

My life was incomplete and I never understood why, I never saw;

Now that you’re back I found my soul to be whole;

Thank you for looking back before closing your heart’s door;

 

You had every right to never look back at all;

I didn’t derserve the time of day;

I guess the same God who makes a heart as hard as clay;

Has the power to melt it in the same way;

 

I want to show you how I have changed;

Not to win you back but to make up for all my past mistakes;

I kind of know it will never be more than friends again;

But I know how living without you pains;

 

So friends is more than I could have asked for when I prayed;

God finally restored the missing puzzle piece, my first love, my yesterday;

Thank you for giving me a chance to make up for the pain;

You helped a lost man find his way…..

 

Wish I knew what I know now;
Wish I could return to the day we met somehow;
Wish I put you first back then;
Wish I never missed out on time with you because of my friends;

Wish I left her in the past;
Wish I focused on you and made it last;
Wish I never broke your innocent heart;
Wish I took the time to love you from the start;

Wish I never played my foolish games;
Wish I appreciated you before you walked away;
Wish I showed you love instead of pain;
Wish I never cheated can’t believe I did you that way;

Wish like God I was able to read your heart;
Wish I never pretended to be someone I’m not;
Wish I gave you all my love;
Wish I spoiled you instead of leaving you with barely enough;

Wish I took time to get to know you;
Wish I opened up to you about my heart and showed you;
Wish I listened to you everytime you cried;
Wish I never fed you all those lies;

Wish I never left you alone all those nights;
Wish I was a faithful guy;
Wish I appreciated those gorgeous eyes;
Wish I knew I’d never find another love like you again in my life;

Wish I kept promises I made to you;
Wish I answered the calls you made;
Wish smse’s you sent I saved;
Wish I made you my lady and not my sex slave;

Wish I appreciated you all day everyday;
Wish I wasn’t blind, wish I was as wise as I am today;
Wish you never left my side;
Wish I never let you slide;

Wish you never became another man’s wife;
Wish you knew that today I’m what you begged God for every tearful night;
Wish you could come fetch your mr right;
Wish you weren’t so far out of sight;

Wish I had just one more chance;
Wish I had one last dance;
Wish you never walked away;
Wish I knew how much I’d miss you today;

Wish I wasn’t blind;
Wish I could press rewind;
Wish I could still be the only guy on your mind;
Wish I could undo all the bad times;

But wishes never come true;
If I had one, know that I’d use it on you;
You heart’s sacrifice changed me into a Prince who was once a fool;
Wish I never realised how much I loved you before the day you walked away;

Wish I had one more day;
Wish I had once more chance to say;
You are the only one I ever truly loved with all my life;
Babygirl I wish you were still here tonight……