Archives for 2013

Shadow Man

Peeling paint crumbling down these dirty walls,
dripping slowly to the dusty floor.

Puddles of tears gathering at her feet,
mouth wide open, arms stretched above her head,
cheek sliding down against the filth.
Nails digging into the now soft walls,
gripping, tearing…breathing.
Sinking slowly to the floor.

She screams.
He walks down the narrow corridor of their lives.

Smiling faces on the walls,
eyes blazing with anticipation.

Figures tear from the framed perfection of stolen smiles,
heads turned to face the Shadow Man.

Mouths open and fingers point.

Lies, lies, liar.

He walks slowly,
the damned walk of the dead.

Grimaces and grins return to their still life forms.

They know.

He knows.
She lies on the floor, blood pouring from her open mouth,
swallowing the crystal tears of their shattered life.
He steps over her, crunching the crystal tears staining her uncurled fingers.

So much dust,
so much serpent tongued words dribbling down his cheeks.

He walks on, 
towards the open door.
Laughter rings out, and the Shadow Man turns.

Crouched on a bright white box balances a familiar face,

A clown, with one tear to spare.

The clown dances wildly before the box,
light filtering through the demon filled chest.

The white faced woman drops her head to the side,
smiling grossly, running her fingers across the box.

She knows.

They know.

He knows.
He turns to run.

She is there, her cold hands on his shoulders,
green eyes staring into his hollow face.

The trapped images from the walls scream with animal delight.

The clown shakes her head, the white box moves towards them,
carried by the spiders and snakes of her nightmares.

The clown kicks the man to the ground.
It is, as it has always been.

She looks down at the man,
searching for a glimpse of the father that should have been there.
The last crystal tear falls.

She throws her head back and twirls. 

The box is bound to the Shadow Mans back.

He crawls along the broken passage of their lives,
cutting his hands on the shattered glass of lost memories.
He reaches out for the woman lying on the floor.

She turns away from his shame,
and finds comfort in the crumbling paint of her old life.

She rises, and her shadow falls over him. 

He crawls towards the open door.

Loneliness embraces him.

The smiling faces in the photographs shimmer and stretch,
and the Shadow Man disappears.

The frames fall to the ground, empty.
The clown turns and walks back up the passage,
running her hands along the walls,

feeling every memory and wasted heartache,

she crouches in the dark and weeps.

All is silent.

Our love

Eyes that smile as hearts beat wild; – our love had found its destiny’s child.

Unspoken words with sweet embrace, surrendered our souls in complete loves grace.

Our bond of love no sacrifice, we took a chance and rolled the dice; – we played the game, our souls consumed by eternal flame.

Regret and pain, our only gain, for now we walk in stormy rain as with time, inevitably our separation came.

Our love has died and no one cried, our hearts ripped out, we live in doubt, and now we know, we have nowhere left to go…

Tell me your dreams..

I want to know what you wished for
When the tooth fairy paid you a visit when you were little
And took your broken tooth away
Was it a castle you wished for or a ride on a cow over the moon?

I want to know what you longed for when you are deep in your thought,
at a place where were none can reach you . Is it the paths across the forest
that lead you to the place you long to be?

I want to know what it is that you ache for as the shooting stars race
Across the velvet sky, as you lay awake on your bed.
I want to know what your dreams are so that they can be mine too
I want to know so that I will take that path with you that will lead you to them

Free

My winters are colder my nights seem longer my days are endless my mind relentless

It’s finished… You’re gone… Our road as one has ended, always destined to walk separate paths

Once entwined now divided, I’m shattered but I’m fine, broken

I remember the days filled with passion and ecstasy the love making and summer strolls

I remember your lies, anger, lust and betrayal, I remember the crying, the begging and the pleading…

Nights of endless beatings, left battered and bruised blood stained and used.

I remember your shame. Your sorries your pain, I was so forgiving so stupid so young so vain.

In the dark these memories flow and I now I know why I had to let you go, my love, my life, my one, my hate…

As I lay here broken and scared I never could have been prepared, you came into my broken heart and
Ripped and tore my soul apart, now the demons awake and near….

In the dark these memories flow and I remember why I let you go, my love, my life my one my hate…

Fine

You will be fine

I won’t not this time, you know nothing of what I feel inside.

My heart is bleeding and my minds at war.
I haven’t been in this kind of darkness before…
I’m broken my body is worn.

Look into my to eyes I’m begging you please.
Can you see me, I’m bleeding….

Are you there? I’m screaming.
why won’t you help
Pleading in vain, why won’t you listen

Its getting dark again.
I’m Begging please, please see me again!
The walls are closing in!!

suffocating, choking, waiting…

I can’t scream anymore there’s nothing to say…
darker…
Reaching out but you just stare.
I’m crying

I’m fading…. can you see?
You could have saved me…
do you care?

Its too late… I’m nearly out!
I’m bleeding again this time its real.
Dying.
Blaming you.
Worthless…

Look at us lying here, broken, my reflection.
If you had just seen me
we could have be fine.

This beautiful life

She seemed to have aged overnight
Hands moved rhythmatically as she stood there and pleaded her cause.
Her elbows forgot their placing and aimlessly shuddered
Her blood rushed and she thought she’d lose it
Lose it – really
It was only a matter of time before she –
Well whatever it was she was thinking
Her black pencil sketched a portrait,
A vivid image of what she was going to do formed.
– What she had drawn in no way compared to what everyone thought she’d do –
Silhouetted shadows set up against cream sheets
She saw burning
Lots of it
Then she lay down to sleep.
Putting the tortures and horrors of the day behind her.

Mine

Emptiness inside of me
Hopelessness within my heart,
As I seek I cannot find, the life that I have left behind,

When you speak I hear no sound
And yet its you to whom I’m bound
In this life I have regrets, mostly which is that we met

I look into a dull reflection
My life so full of misconception
I am yours I have no say
For it is my heart that you stay

Time has passed, and I’m still here
All I feel is this endless fear
I never knew it would go this far
That you would leave so many scars

But you are mine and mine to keep
until one day its you who weeps

31.10.2011

Freed

Freed

Welcome to my generation, we told we are limitless
But realized we are constricted
The color-blind generation
I am colorless but I’m marked

They tell us we equal
But they put us in cages and confine us
They lied to us

Generations before us suffered
They fought
They died
For freedom, equality, opportunity

We are a nation at war
Our people are dying
Our lands are sick
The races are fighting
Our unity divided.

The born free generation
The discriminating generation
The now generation

See people for what they are
See that Ink is art
Gay is love
Black is white
A heart is a heart
we all bleed red

I am freedom
I follow no man for men are fools
They are selfish and cruel

I am freedom
I bow down to no god
Loving gods have no terms and conditions attached

If my freedom condemns me
Then my fate is sealed and my path is marked

I am ready
I am art
I am love
I am colorless
I am free

I am nothing they want me to be.
01.01.2013

Untitled

You rose From the shadows reached into my light, took something of mine too selfishly soon.
You heed no warning you show no signs that into the shadows you’ll take the divines.

You had no right to just come and take, you took my light and made it night, you crushed a heart, left things unsaid you broke up families so un prepared.

Now the darkness is all I see I beg I plead just please take me. You’ve taken my eden and turned it to dust you took a love I will never again touch.

The choice you made I cannot change, I wished and prayed I was merely deranged. My soul seems hollow my flame has died.

I can’t feel the light I just cried and cried and even though your deed is done. In my heart they carry on. You may have taken their body from sight but YOU DEATH will one day have me to fight.

25.04.2013

Development is

A beautiful massacre,
His hunger,
That planet’s global warming,
Their poverty,
My enrichment,
…help me destroy nature…
Do not charge me for my crime
Let my existence torment me.