Maybe, Just Maybe (20.09.90)

Maybe I should have made more time for you than I did;

Maybe I should have tried instead of wanting to up and quit;

Things I can’t change are the most expensive assets,only thing my large bank balance can’t afford to buy;

If it could I’d rewind time to that very first day and love you right;

 

Perhaps you should have been my priority and not my heart’s crutch;

Maybe I should have shown you I love you so damn much;

Maybe I should have said I was damaged goods way before we met;

I hid the truth, my plan was loving you but I ended up hurting you instead;

 

Nights without you have gone from days to years and you’re that one girl my heart refuses to forget;

As I lay to sleep, mistakes I made replay over and over in my regretful head;

What hurts is I did so much to hurt you that a 360 degree turn is an impossible goal to achieve;

I have everything I want, but not the one thing I really need;

 

I’ve always wondered how could you be depressed as a celebrity;

Now I understand, some things can’t be bought by any amount of money;

Priceless moments that I took for granted when it was free;

Perfect love I earned at no cost but I was too blind too see;

 

I was searching for an angel when she was always next too me;

What does is benefit a man to become a King if he hasn’t got a Queen;

Then he is just a powerful man with a crown for everyone too see;

It took a while to wake up girl but now these things are so obvious to me;

 

I know you’re gone for good and we will never be;

You found a new man and evicted me from your heart’s space;

You were the reason for that crooked smile on my face;

Now I find it hard just to make it through each day;

 

I want to call you up like so many times before;

But you told me to stop it cause you’ve closed the door;

I’m trying to be the man you’ve always wished for;

Respecting your wishes even if it hurts me to my core;

 

Karma made me pay for crimes against your innocent heart;

I paid the ultimate cost for our past;

Sometimes I wonder if Karma forgot to stop cause it’s f*cking hard;

Making me remember days with you, making me want to go back knowing that I can’t

 

Having a palace and the world at my feet;

It’s every man’s dream you’d think;

But without you this don’t mean a thing;

I’d rather have you back and have nothing;

 

I know I could work and get back everything;

But how do I get you back knowing I’m the reason for you leaving;

I’ve striven all my life trying to get where I am, hurting you while trying to achieve;

 

Now that I have it all, I see you were all I ever needed to make me happy