What can i do mum, to show that i love you?
How will you know, you’re a friend and not a foe?
You need to know how precious you are…
You shine in the dark nestled amongst a billion stars!
Through your struggles, your pain, heartache and tears
You never gave in; you just veiled your fears
Your relentless serenity, your conscientious charm
Your instincts of protection which keeps me from harm
So tell me mum, what can i do to show that i love you?
“My child…a simple thank you will more than doâ€
Archives for June 2015
Thank You
Love Affair!
You came from my past, into my present but will never my future be..
You brought joy with pain, tears with laughter, oh – the memories..
I felt love when I heard your voice.
I felt guilt when I had to make a choice!
How could I not embrace what I once lost..
A passionate love affair! But at what cost?
I couldn’t breathe, my heart stopped beating.
My love, my life, is this really happening?
An unending road once travelled..
Desirous feelings are now revealed!
The love I feel for you was buried but not dead,
Kept safe in an aching heart, not fed!
This feeling of pure luminous pleasure..
Like a bitter pirate to undiscovered treasure!
You came from my past, into my present but will never my future be..
Thank you for the joy with pain, tears with laughter, oh – the memories..
Passing Meadows
The trees are green and bubbling outside
They look so luscious and full of life;
But all i do is sit at my window
And look over passing meadows.
The wind is blowing but very subtly
Creasing the waters along so gently;
But all i do is sit at my window
And look over passing meadows.
Way up in the sky, beauty is what I see
Cotton wool animals floating so free;
But all i do is sit at my window
And look over passing meadows.
If I had one wish, and one wish only
It would be to dwell in the heavenlies
On the earth below and just make my mark;
If only I could walk!
Love, the moon & the sun x.
The moon & the sun
Are at other sides,
However together,
With their love
They make a world,
With the calming chaotic ocean tides,
And undiscovered iceburgs,
And land forming embedding roots
And rain falling slowly to bring life.
They’re are paralleling opposites
Giving eachother a time to be,
A time to shine,
They are slowly creating an
infinity.
wait
Here I sit and wait,
wait in hope that happiness will come my way.
Wait in hope that my troubles will disappear.
That I will be able to see the purpose of life again.
The importance of living.
Here I am, sitting and waiting.
For my turn of happiness to come.
Happiness that is meant for me.
Unforced happiness.
Here I will sit for ever .
in hope that my happiness will find its way to me, and my troubles will disappear.
I am not yet to give up, nor not ready to quit my destiny.
Because in hope I wait, wait for a brighter day to come.
I understand
I understand is a phrase that I am starting to find hard to say.
I understand I say:
I understand I say when you make me question my sense of self-worth,
I understand I say as you slowly chit away years of independence,
I understand I say when you attack my identity and yet want to lay the blame on me.
I understand I say:
I understand I say when you introduce doubt to my convictions,
I understand I say when you blame your mistakes on me,
For how could you have done that if not for me?
Yet I see no way out.
Confined by expectation and fear.
I have built a prison much stronger than iron bars.
I understand.
I understand is a phrase that I am starting to find hard to say.
To Fear
Evaporate.
Detach yourself from the memories i cling on.
You were never good enough for me.
The comfort I found in the corners of my darkest shadows,
Well, today breaks dawn of a whole new world.
As we divide, I deposit you in the brightest, shiniest days of my past,
And let you hang around the neck of my fears and hope gravity is never defied.
I shall seek self in the origins of mine
And let the wisdom in your words dissipate and attach itself to the air i exhale…
The seed that was left for life to water, Got better with age,
I now see what is for what it really is.
I now fear not.
My envy for the unknown
I lie behind the tall mountain tops
And long to drift beyond the seas
I duck and dive from the roots of my birth tree
And place myself under the shadow of one that is unknown to me
I stretch my eyes to the sky above
With a desire to follow the birds beyond the seas
I diverge my thoughts from the sunset which seems black and white to me
And admire one which my mind sees as marigold
I drink from the well, only the ones like me drink from
Dissolving its tastes into my taste buds
Adopting customs, whose backgrounds are unknown
I block out all which I could see
And envy a world invisible to me
Blinded by the mountain tops before me
If You’d Just Keep Quiet
If you’d just keep quiet-
Our kids would learn to trust
you again,
You’d restore the peace under
our roof,
You’d save our marriage.
If you’d just keep quiet-
You’d solve most of your
problems instead of focussing
on everyone else’s,
You’d do much better at your
job and earn the respect you
think you deserve.
If you’d just keep quiet-
You would have so much more
time on your hands to achieve
all you want to achieve,
You’d control your tongue
and save us a whole lot of
hurt.
If you’d just keep quiet-
You’ make better decisions
and learn from those mistakes
you so often make,
The sun and moon would
smile at you every day of your
life.
If you’d just keep quiet-
You’d be better able to control
your destiny,
You’d break free from your
own bondage,
You’d be able to handle life’s
complexities.
If you’d just keep quiet, and
choose fewer words,
Your life would be a whole lot
easier than this,
You’d stay humble and be
exalted.