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Take me away
Let’s go there
I need to go
to get away
I wana feel something
Something new
Look in wonder,
Lay my eyes on unseen
Beauty is difference
let’s go, let’s go see
Itchy feet and empty pockets
Let’s have an adventure
In the sun, or shade, grass or sand
Let’s just go!
Go to anywhere
Let’s go there
Take me there
There where we can feel
Feel anything
You see I’ve said these words many times
Easily
To any who wished to hear
But I’m thinking what does love mean? What does my love mean?
My love is loyal
I’m not saying there won’t be another you
I’m saying I don’t want there to be another you
Its Long lasting, like the Nile
My love is abundant
I’m not saying you haven’t hurt it, and oh you’ve hurt it
But it flows from no end, gushing, like the Victoria falls
My love is hot
I’m not saying it isn’t sometimes cold, because yes it sometimes is
But it burns like a day in the Sahara
My love is uhuru (yeah I said it)
I’m not saying I won’t put you down, because sometimes I want to
But with it you will reach the peaks of Kilimanjaro
My love its for you
What a thing it is to love you
Every little
thing!
Its burning flames
On my skin
But baby it feels so
Good
To
love your every
Way
begining and end
bad and so sad
I see that charred skin
I am crying out, oh baby, what a thing it is to love you!
And when I love you, the way a woman lovvves a man
Only one thing can
Be born
My body calling your divinity toward
Narrowed Eyes pitched to your full
Lips
Lips that must, must reach mine
I crave your fullness
Smother you in mine
Begging for just
Momentary freedom
between thighs soft, more than yellow
Bone
What a thing it is to love you
To wish for release
from you in me
or away to go
I cannot have you
Be my love
And I cannot
Let you go
Oh but baby, what a thing it is to love you
Can you understand longing for something that is there?
I can. I long for you.
I miss you Mummy.
You were magic. Every kind of woman, it was in you.
But it undid you.
It was too much. No one can blame you.
I miss you Ma
I can’t regret the times we did spend.
The effort you put it.
The only memories I have
I miss you Mum
I hate what happened.
I hate what you did to me
You left me. You left us, you even left you.
You aren’t you anymore. You’re not magic.
I miss you Ama.
I long for someone who’s in the next room.
Can you understand?
Missing someone thats there.
Sick
Wrecked with anxiety and ignorance
Tasting breakfast again and later moms spaghetti
So much confusion! What’s a girl gotta do?
Nothings in place, there’s no sense
Just drifting from here to there
Thoughts firing everywhere
Drowning in desire and impatience
Depression’s the name of this game
I’m in all spaces while staying still
Trapped in a edgy skin that won’t tear
Craving anything to subdue
The impossible tirade of think
Thinking thoughts relentless
Sinking feelings ruthless
Pills and thrills, people in heapfuls
Nothing mattering mutterings
Relief needed so desperately
A futile search
Keep playing the game
Cycles continue
Persistent moments that cannot be sustained
Begging to stop
“Ideas are like a virus”
Unrepentant scars trail along a nuanced cheek
Violence couldn’t help but settle on this delicate face
Times and troublesome vibes
Delirium substitutes for something like genuine happiness
Cold shoulders writhe together
A spark results from this putrid friction
It threatens, this spark
It threatens to set everything ablaze
Seconds are counted
Every single one of billions
Billions of filthy seconds, suiciding themselves away
The bed where warmth is supposed to shelter
It has become the pit where insides tangle and swelter
Home
Built so long ago, in other lifetimes
It was supposed to be the inside of a womb
The certain safety of an eternal tomb
It was supposed to be
The place where hearts and heads melted into one
Little ones shrieking with delight
Leaving their tiny footprints on sands and blades of pristine grass
Yet, it never amounted to any of that
Years disappeared and expectations began to erase
This abomination managed to swell and become a giant
Trudging along, engorged on routine and the numb sensation
The wounds were self-made
Made together
Made to each other
Just a simple way to remind these hearts
To keep beating, keep eating
Keep kneeling, keep being
Lovers inhabit coated shells
They bounce along a stream towards certain doom
Devoid of knowing
Wanting the connection to sever
Never knowing how to justify the endeavour
Two souls drift alone
Together forever
There’s a light coming,
It edges a moment at a time
It says “hold on, draw close, step forward”
It was there in the distance,
Too faint to trust
Never stoked by shut eyes
It flickered, whispered, and dimmed.
It grew. Spurned on by other wide eyes, cheering for attention.
It started to call softly
Fearful shut eyes crept open
I see you they both said
What a sight it was to see, a light burning, eyes glowing
Still far off, the two gazed.
Fearfully moving gainfully forward.
It won’t be long now
It won’t be long now till the two meet
No words will ever describe,
Your beautiful description.
Your image pierces an unexpected distraction.
My God, you are beautiful!
How are you able to deny that?!
Muhle intombazane, AḻakÄṉa
Golden glow, more than a suns kiss
Soft smooth stretched bronze
Scents of cocoa, sweetness and spices
Decorated with strips and stripes
Cautious to a hands touch,
Belowing black mass of mess
Fingers run in unrefined silk
Staining pillows with flower smells
A crown on a boredroom princess
Enthrall, entangle, ebony
Brown eyes and big smiles
Full cheeks n dimpled sides
Dimpled everything.
Unprecedented voluptuousness
Filling, struggling, tugging, squeezing
Mocked and worshiped
Small hands, worked feet
Deep voiced and bright mind
You are a beautiful woman.
Believe it.
Tomorrow called my name aloud
Said it true and said it proud
Said it with the will of one
Who knows his duty done
Tomorrow called my name aloud
Hiding truth behind that bitter shroud
Knowing that the words he said
Would fill my ice-cold heart with dread
Tomorrow did his duty true
Brave and cold and knew
that life would never be the same again
once I knew of Tomorrow’s gain
Tomorrow trembled as he saw my eyes
Saw the fear and saw the wise
and knew I knew the message true
and what his words would bring me to
I saw Tomorrow regret the day
that he took a young girl’s hope away
I saw him weep and plead
For a young child’s hollow seed
The branch that would never grow
never simple blossoms know
Instead would lie in Forever’s hands,
Tomorrow’s and his ally,
Death.
The day breaks but it has no meaning,
We find no reason to live.
Hunger is unbearable but it already seems normal.
We live in shelter not suitable for humans.
Are we worth anything?
Do we mean something to anyone?
The world produces twice as much needed but we see no evidence of this.
Our Babies have no milk to drink and they die of hunger.
Watching our children’s hunger is worse than death itself.
Our leaders have abandoned us.
Humanity has abandoned us.
Where do we go?
What do we eat?
What do we do?
All we can do is cry for help but it falls on deaf ears.
There is nothing we can do but beg for death.
Life is not worth living.
