In the a.m

Five of the a.m. I think of you. Your mind and beauty. You awaken what I thought couldn’t be in me anymore.
I know not what all this means. I know this life nor love never lasts yet I find myself ready for the experience.
I swam back into the deep darkness. Where the water has went unexplored,not even by the light. Only darkness lives where I put my heart.
I have it open.its free of the chains I tied around it. So that it may not love nor by any chance surface from the deep sea I tossed it into. I wish to give it to you. Do with it as you please. It was never mine to tame.
When it’s all done I shall have it back for I knew from the start it will never be your best. I will not blame or curse. I will only be thankful for the experience. I’ve sang the unloved lover’ s song before, and life is too short to do it again. It doesn’t give me any pleasure. I’ll smile in the end instead.