Where were you when I needed you?

Where were you when I needed you?
When confusion was all I saw as a little child
When our family was being torn apart
When life gave me no reason to smile…
Where were you when I needed you to tell me everything’s going to be alright?
Where were you when I needed you to take away my lonely nights?

As a kid there was times I needed a hand to hold
When darkness filled my mind
When darkness was all time sold and my head was filled with lies
I appreciate the toys and money you gave but that couldn’t bring a smile.
You called me useless, stupid and all sorts of names
I’m so sorry that I was made your child
Im sorry that i disappointed you again!
But where you when i needed you, to help me through the rain?

I needed someone to help me with my school work
But yet again alone I tried and tried.
Embarrassed because I couldn’t read in grade three
The joke of the class again I was but the reason they just couldn’t see!
Head filled with lie’s, lie’s was all I could tell
I did not want them to know what I’m going through
Showing how you felt was not so ‘cool’’.

Where were you when I needed you to hear my hearts deepest cry?
You weren’t there when I needed you ?
Now you know why I died inside!

Come Home

Drowning in the four oceans of misery,
Pain, disappointment, guilt and heartache
I’ve brought this on myself and I’m ashamed
I’ve sinned against God and Mankind
How do I put together what I’ve broken?
I’ve poured out my heart with every word spoken.

I prayed for forgiveness and begged for help
My heart is aching and I feel like I’m in hell
You are my destiny, how can you not see?
You helped me through my stormy days
Comforted by the love you’ve shown me.

Come home, oh please come home
My life has no meaning without you
I can’t eat; I can’t sleep all on my own.
I know I’ve done you wrong
But please show some love
Please play your hearts song
Come home, Oh please…
come home.

Done By: Angelo Hedley

Emotional murder

Every negative word you utter
Slices deep like a dagger
Slowly splitting us apart
As the Blood of the innocent
Spills on the carpet…
Is this what our seed should grow up with?

The beauty that shined deep in your eyes
Now with no heart, it only shows lies
And as your touch turns colder and colder
My heart screams emotional murder!
For every moment that you away
Is as cold as when we lay
You on your side, me on mine..
And tomorrow starts another cold day.

Done by: Angelo Hedley

There’s No Place for ME

Loved as a baby, grew up as a “loner”
No connection, no place, like a dog without an owner.
Teased for my unusual body structure
To them I was just a joke
The anger that grew inside of me
Took over and consumed all hope.

My parents Bad Habits, added to the pain.
The feeling of being laughed at, made living such a pain.
Although I had some family, the “black sheep” I still remained
My sister felt my heartache, but she couldn’t see MY pain.

My parents made their choices, in which I had to live with
I watched my family crumble, not knowing how to mend it.
And as the years slowly passed, poetry became my heartbeat
With no true friend, I had my pen and that is all I needed.
I’ve turned my back against the world, my gang became my fam.
I’ve played the game and made my name, but still felt lost inside.

My mind was filled with doubt and anger
“Where to now”… I began to wonder.
There’s no place for me in this world of hate
”Dear Lord, please feed my hunger”.
And then I realised, that all that I’ve been through
Was enough to shape my future.
I’ve changed my view as God shaped my life

No longer am I filled with Hate.
And for my future generation I stand, to be a better Man!


My life has been lonely since childhood
My future seemed cold and shattered.
I’ve seen how a loving family could turn cold
And left my brothers and sister scattered.

It was like a dream that turned into a nightmare
Is this how life works out in the end?
Does real, true love break a perfect pair?
And why are there only memories left?

We call ourselves family, but yet it’s hard to talk
We act like commentators at gatherings
Discussing each other’s lives with no remorse.

From moms side to dads side
Family injected with lies.
Where does the politics end?
Can anybody here our innocent cries?

We fuss and moan, we judge and hate
The innocent sits on the fence.
Why can’t we live as one? Forgive before it’s too late!
Or have we already planned our fate?

False Pretences!

The test of life’s deepest oceans has finally arrived.
Back strokes potent as poison ivy.
For past love and embrace my heart strived
But between false pretences it slowly died.

They got pretend shields with ‘Gods’ name on it,
Yet they descend as low as the devils heart
Attacking the walls which protects my heart in it.
Causing pain and no options to mend it.

They shatter our image with pleasure in their eyes.
Feeding a burning endless fire.
Beyond the wasteland lays our hearts innocent cries
Unsuspecting, “revenge” well revised.

Behold, my destiny is fully planed out
Although my eyes have never seen it.
Success be my motto there’s no place for doubt.
Restoration with God we seek before drought