Where do I find the words to tell you that I’m so sorry?
I may be good with words as some might say but here I am struggling to pen down this apology;
This is not a letter to excuse me, this is an admission of being guilty;
As I sit and stare at this blank page;
Tear drops start to fall as they consume my face;
Regrets plague my lonely mind as it starts to replay;
The days I broke your heart with no reason to find;
And how I always made it seem as you were the reason for every single fight;
Girl I can’t tell you the reasons why;
I look back in time and can’t believe I was that blind;
Punishing you for her crimes;
I can’t undo the pain I caused you no matter how hard I try;
I know nothing I say or do will give you a change of mind;
I deceived you with far too many lies;
I know that I can’t convince you that I’ve finally changed for the good, Lord knows how much I’ve tried;
I can’t beg you to come back one last time;
I’ve been on my knees in front of you endless times, pushing pride aside;
You would just turn around and walk away every time;
I’ve run out of options and so I finally stopped making my problems yours;
Knowing that no matter what I do, you no longer love me like you once did before;
I stopped texting you for it hurt every time I got ignored;
I stopped trying too call knowing that you don’t answer them anymore;
6 years have passed since us I know, but it seems like only yesterday;
Hope still resides within the walls of my heart and refuses to fade;
Hoping you might return someday;
That day never comes, making the next one even harder to face;
I wish I had the words to apologize to you in every way;
Instead here I sit watching as my tears stain this blank page