Archives for March 20, 2015

Unexplained_ Enermy at Work

Church a holy place to be
In front for everyone to see

This was her place, in the wooden bench
Now it makes perfectly sense

She looked at me, with mixed emotions on her face
Actually it was with utmost disgrace

I couldn’t understand, maybe it was because I was late
Next to her glaring at me was her sister, her best mate

Concentrating on church was hard
But I’ve tried my best from the start

Snap out of it, church is on
Oh my word, it’s actually done

She stood in the bench waiting on me
This I could clearly see

She took my hand, said Merry Christmas and my name
This is such a shame
Because she is playing a deadly game

The next year was the same story
She was in it for her glory

People don’t mind what they do to you
Happiness she wanted too

Never again she mentioned my name
Only in church when she was playing this game

FEAR

Today I ask the question, why me?
An answer I need, I beg of you, I plea

I seriously cannot handle it all
Because I know I’m bond to fall

Don’t you know that this can bruise?
Like seriously, would you think this is a path I would choose?

I cannot run away
Because in this game I was stationary and now it’s my turn to play

But I’m not strong enough
Why not choose someone that s tough?

It’s not that I under estimate me
But through my eyes this is all that I can see

Someone small, scared and alone
Why can’t I be tough, big with a heart that turned to stone?

I don’t know the purpose of it all
What will I learn when I eventually fall?
Is this my purpose is this my call?

All odds are against me
Everyone can clearly see

Please tell me what I should do
Send a directive with guidelines too

Because I was never here in my life before
Always behind a safe and locked door

The door swung open and I’m supposed to act
Confidence now is what I lack

Because I really don’t know the way forward from here
Yes I confess…it’s called FEAR!!!

Role Of An Underdog

I’ve been underestimated since my youth;

Played the role of underdog like a pro regardless of the shit I’ve been through;

Wanted to give up a time or two;

As those around me pretended, setting me up to be ran through;

 

I’m not complaining at all I’m just trying to explain;

That I’ve been forced to endure days of never ending rain;

Persecuted as an innocent man and put on trial;

Found guilty of crimes I didn’t even do in my life;

 

Now that I’m made with my name in lights;

You want to be there for me as if you always were by my side;

And you get offended when I ignore you in plain sight;

Calling me arrogant, when I’m just paying you back for all those times;

 

You forced me to wipe away tears I never even caused myself to cry;

Where were you when I needed a friend just to talk;

Whenever I called you hit ignore;

When we met face to face you turned away as if I embarrassed you from the public point of view;

 

Now that I roll solo you want us to be cool;

As if nothing was wrong but that’s something I just can’t do;

I may be saved but I ain’t holy, that’s Jesus’s job not mine;

Even if I loose points in Heaven, I’ll take my chances until I reach the after-life;

 

When I had the chance to take revenge I refrained;

When I could have ended your life I turned the other way;

All I’m asking is stop trying to make up for past mistakes;

I don’t want your apology and I don’t care about what you have to say;

 

You see I was forced to play the role of underdog and I did it like a pro;

So if you want to be friends now, the answer is a hard no;

See you next life time, maybe God will have mercy on your soul cause I won’t;

I lift my middle finger and write you off as a thing of the past;

You thought you broke me, but you only strengthened my heart.