A song of love

If ladies be but young and fair,
If men show mirth and trust their dears;
And love is true to guide them right;
What can make love, not Waugh awhile?

Love is good but lovers spoil,
It’s meant for joy and not dispute;
For both mast love and none regret,
That is love the right way now.

They are that think that love is blind,
If lovers see, then love is true;
Whereon does the jest depend?
It’s just because they’re fools in love;
Their love is false, and guides them wrong;

Oh! Love the peace of earth,
What is there on land or sea?
To make a love without dispute,
For oh! We want a love in gay,
Without offence, and no distress;

I am blessed

I am blessed, I am loved
His grace and mercy upon my life
Is greater than the universe’s dimension
And all of Earth’s demission and demotion
Won’t keep me from my life devotion

I am blessed yes it’s true
His protection and fortification
Is stronger than the world’s defenses
In all the enemy’s attempts for my distraction
And the corruption disrupting my trail
Can’t obstruct me from my deliverance

I am blessed and adored*
His affection and devotion to me
Extends beyond pacific leans
All deceptions and confusions in my track
Won’t extract me from his Compassion

I am blessed and so are you
His love I am so eager to share
I was extruded to excellence
By my tutor a giant convection
To convey his vast press

Lord, I have been blessed,
Not only was I blessed,
But I have been divinely favored

Devil in my bed

He rubs your back to soothe your long day,
he sends you hearts on yours to play
He fills the holes in your dads’ shoes,
Perfection you seek in his eyes deep and gloom
What smells this rotten?

You wake in the morning combusted by lust,
is this love, is he someone I can trust?
The emotions run high but clouded by confusion,
is this need I feel or his intrusion?
Just what is causing this discomfort?

You smile so spontaneous in minutes it turns,
to bursts of screams and flaming burns
What are the odds that this is not meant to be?
Such a silly though but inside grows the seed
How can warm feel so cold?

His arms around you in broken glass and frames
Why is he spinning me around in these games?
Up and down and up and down and……..fall
Why didn’t he catch me he just stood there tall?
Something hurts inside my chest.

The mood is sombre moist and cold
Why do his arms suddenly feel so cold?
I want to run but where do I go,
he has taken my only shelter I know
His skin is turning grey why?

His fists so hard every stroke intended to be fatal
who is crying harder me or my soul in the cradle?
How did it turn so wrong it’s not meant to be?
Why is my Romeo this beast I see?
O why can’t I run?

As clear as the night in his eyes!
I had the devil in my bed all this time.

if my heart could speak

If my heart could speak
It would whisper your name,
And it will resonate throughout my body.
It would sing the joy you’ve brought me.
The sorrows of my echoed past.
The fear of this new ocean feelings.

Oh if my heart could speak
It will speak the divine language of your heart.
As our souls meet and intertwine, it will only speak your name.
It will keep you close with its coarse tongue and naïve eyes

Yes my heart speaks to u.
It calls your name and you answer.
Its rhythmic dance that can only be mirrored by your heart.
So listen closely, hear your name…

For my heart longs to be heard

Why why

What is why, why is why asked or pondered.
Why why?
Perhaps its not the answer that matters but instead its that there is an answer.
Perhaps its not the unknown that scares us but the fact that there is an unknown.
Maybe we ask the question for the answer not to know why but instead to know that there is an answer.

So then why.
What compels us to need to know that there is a known.
Curiosity?
Instinct? Couldn’t be instinct.
Fear.

I know fear is what drove me to be the person I am.
So am I just a product of predictable emotion?
A being that has been designed not by life experiences but the fear of them?
Probably.

I crave sense but am driven to find that which does not make sense.
I want order but am constantly creating ways to disturb it.
I am a creature of contradictions. A living breathing thing that dos not live but instead questions why.

Why ask why?
Why why?
Perhaps its not the answer that matters but instead its that there is an answer.

What i wish to be

i wish to be a whore of horror and gore
where no priest or saint can save me
my legs apart, i’m aching to start
im naked and waiting.

I would reek of cum in the dining halls
my tits always on display
at a glance you would feel repelled
and in disgust you would look away.

my sheets will be soiled with semen and shit
my skin blistered and sore
but nothing will compare to the open scabs
lining the frame of my door.

there is no lock so any swinging cock is able to come in
have his way
jiz and pray
that he doesnt catch anything

but pray in vane you will my boy
i will not leave you without a sore
my cunt enjoys this game you see
and looks forward to more..

Battle wounds

Smeared across the floor
Light flowing from the open door
I can almost feel it
Im not quite sure If I need it

My limbs broken and sore
My mind blistered to the core
I wonder how this came to be
Its unfortunate I cannot see

I do not wail
I do not morn
I break my silence with a sighful yawn

I can feel the air around my face
I can smell the damp of this place
I feel my skin has been battered and torn
I cannot help wonder why I was born

Where were you when I needed you?

Where were you when I needed you?
When confusion was all I saw as a little child
When our family was being torn apart
When life gave me no reason to smile…
Where were you when I needed you to tell me everything’s going to be alright?
Where were you when I needed you to take away my lonely nights?

As a kid there was times I needed a hand to hold
When darkness filled my mind
When darkness was all time sold and my head was filled with lies
I appreciate the toys and money you gave but that couldn’t bring a smile.
You called me useless, stupid and all sorts of names
I’m so sorry that I was made your child
Im sorry that i disappointed you again!
But where you when i needed you, to help me through the rain?

I needed someone to help me with my school work
But yet again alone I tried and tried.
Embarrassed because I couldn’t read in grade three
The joke of the class again I was but the reason they just couldn’t see!
Head filled with lie’s, lie’s was all I could tell
I did not want them to know what I’m going through
Showing how you felt was not so ‘cool’’.

Where were you when I needed you to hear my hearts deepest cry?
You weren’t there when I needed you ?
Now you know why I died inside!

One of Us

You lied
I know you did
Through your eyes
I saw your tears
You tried to hide
I know you did
Behind your smile
I heard your fears

And you died
I know you did
But your pride
Said it was me
So you could feel
You’re better than me

There is a cure
I know there is
For the shame
You project on me
Don’t you know
What’s you is me?

I set you free,
I know I did
Forgiving you
Healing me
I know the truth
You know I do…

That what’s in you…
is in me too!

~Verushka2011~

Wake up in love

Wake up in love

Wipe the sleep from your eyes…
Open the windows to your soul
Open your heart, child of life,
Now – fill it with love

Stretch your arms there’s no ceiling…
Reaching only for light
Stand tall now, child of life,
Stand tall, you have been counted

Breathe deep in love into ever-now…
Fill your lungs with the Divine
The taste of love, dear child of life,
Is exhaling knowing this presence

Feel joy in your energy body…
Savour the vibration of bliss
Loving the all as is, child of life,
Transcending in un-waivering faith

Aligning now with your beginning…
Beginning to experience no end
Eternal to your core, sweet child of life,
Worthy – is how you were born

Greet the new day as greeted…
Returning the love and the light
Smile wide as you can child of life now,
Then catch life smiling right back

Thankful in mind and in spirit…
Creating your day so in love
Appreciating as you go, child of life,
Gifting the day’s Giver… in love.

~Verushka2012~