Bitter Treat

Behind her eyelids she hears voices fighting each other
Without a pause in her silence.
Her silence shares noises of lightning and thunder
Without her causing the violence.
The violence had spread poisons biting her under-
Her brown and sore skin divided.
Divided by bad choices; ‘Why did my father-
Rip out and force me for my things’.
Now there are no chords for her violin,
No doors for her hiding
Nor the law is abiding.

In the core of his thieving self and unsober mind,
Lies demons wicked in unheard degrees.
Degrees always giving wealth to a dark road of crime
Unlike seasons that withered without burning trees.
His trees form an unbreathing realm where the sun is overnight.
With visions injured, he doubts their certainties.
His certainties know no children’s health but loafers’ fun.
She wishes women wizards could come and serve him tea.
And that death occurs in he
Or her death is bursting free
From this man-made adversity.

After mother died, it was father’s pride.
When others pry with wonders, whys –
A lonely widower is underlined.
His dignity is now one defined as castle light.
A frustrated tool with hating moods –
With statements due from men in hoods
And instead of cool he passes through –
To the gal in you to test his fuel.

She’s barely grown with belly blown.
She carries loads, him and his bone.
She has no friends, he cares so less.
She can’t confess, he gets so mad.
She’s dripping red, his sleeping bed.
She isn’t fed; he’s sipping ‘bread’.
She whips it out, he screams he shouts.
She’s feeling ouch, he’s filled with fouls.

Her unborn dies, his son from lies.
Her gun drawn eyes , his non-stop sign.
He drinks his actions, she seeks protection.
He breathes aggression, she breathes but lessened.
He kicks, he bashes, she licks the patches.
He beats, he lashes, she’s weak, and she’s ashes.
His daughter’s eyes are slowly dying.
He orders her life but no reply.
He calls her twice but she’s cold as ice.

Their borderline is crossed with lying,
But their world and mine are both combined.

If I was a thought

If I was a thought I would choose to sail –
On the shallow seas of young minds that loose and fail,
Confined by confinement; in a prisoner’s shoes in jail.
Minds accused to ail as patients of eternal sickness in abuse’s tale.
 
If I was a thought I would choose to be planted –
Root-deep and fertilized in the mentally – bruised and demented
And refuse to leave centred the power of a foreign enemy
Exchanging blows with false reality close to falling sanity
 
If I was a thought I would build sacred temples –
Within souls where hatred settles as the devil’s naked samples.
In your grey thinking matter I’d give rise to vagrant rebels.
 
If I was a thought in blindness’ mind I’d cry for support
To rearrange the purpose of chaos in the life that we have got.
 
If I was a thought I’d fill holes in empty places –
Where colds roam through broken windows to kill souls of angry faces.
 
If I was a thought I’d be no accidental idea-
Built on luck and co incidence, harassed and strangled by fear
But a self- mental pioneer;
A thought of revolution’s emotions in motion to settle right here.
(Pointing to the head)
 

Mistress

“We complicated” you said

I was no angel, we never waited
We were never meant to be
But still I fell, so deep
You had me wishing for parallel universe
Where I was yours & you were my future

Two broken people can’t fix each other
Our cracks & pieces don’t mend
Only sharp edges left to cut more of me
But I am in love with the pain
Its beautiful
Its toxic
Its me
Its us

Its complicated- you said

The reason u won’t leave her
I sit here holding your darkest nights
And she is your light
I know you are still missing something
I wish I was the one who completed you

So I drink on for us to numb the feelings
Take the high like my first puff
I consume you like a drug
I am addicted to you
I am lost in you
I am you

I am complicated- you said

Mosquito Bites

Mkhulu, outside a township heat wave passed us more than a thousand times. yesterday We were sitting on your straw mata’s listening to crickets and toads growl in agony behind unknown places. Just the way you taught us Mkhulu. The night, so innocent, was pure and celebrated by stars of which you were one of them. Subconciously our tiny hands slapping at our tiny feet at night, dodging the unnatural touch of shongololo’s and mosiquito bites. Consiciously watching the pale lady of diplomacy singing lullaby’s to her people.

Momentary Insanity

I smile broadly in disguise of this pain
I’m residing inside the sea
A sea
Made out of my own tears
Tears
Which I cry for you

It has been over a year
Yet I still find myself waking up in the middle of the night

Calling for you

Curled up in my pillow

Seeking for you

Hoping to find you

On the other side of the bed

Desire running through my vains
Quivering for your embrace
Thirsty for your lips
Longing to hear your soft voice
Saying “please hold me”

Everything seems familiar
But incomplete without you

I dream of you often day and night
I wish all of this was just a nightmare
Cause in the morning it would be over
And you would be here with me
I no longer know when I’m asleep or awake
Am I sleeping or awake now?
I don’t know

I apologize
I didn’t know you were unhappy
Momentary insanity
must have been the reason I caused you pain

I surrender
I was wrong
Save me from my misery
Save me from this insanity

Please come home.

Momentary Insanity

I smile broadly in disguise of this pain
I’m residing inside the sea
A sea
Made out of my own tears
Tears
Which I cry for you

It has been over a year
Yet I still find myself waking up in the middle of the night

Calling for you

Curled up in my pillow

Seeking for you

Hoping to find you

On the other side of the bed

Desire running through my vains
Quivering for your embrace
Thirsty for your lips
Longing to hear your soft voice
Saying “please hold me”

Everything seems familiar
But incomplete without you

I dream of you often day and night
I wish all of this was just a nightmare
Cause in the morning it would be over
And you would be here with me
I no longer know when I’m asleep or awake
Am I sleeping or awake now?
I don’t know

I apologize
I didn’t know you were unhappy
Momentary insanity
must have been the reason I caused you pain

I surrender
I was wrong
Save me from my misery
Save me from this insanity

Please come home.

This beautiful life

She seemed to have aged overnight
Hands moved rhythmatically as she stood there and pleaded her cause.
Her elbows forgot their placing and aimlessly shuddered
Her blood rushed and she thought she’d lose it
Lose it – really
It was only a matter of time before she –
Well whatever it was she was thinking
Her black pencil sketched a portrait,
A vivid image of what she was going to do formed.
– What she had drawn in no way compared to what everyone thought she’d do –
Silhouetted shadows set up against cream sheets
She saw burning
Lots of it
Then she lay down to sleep.
Putting the tortures and horrors of the day behind her.

Listen

Listen to me give ear
read my lips if you donot hear.
From your brother and sister,
and you’ll know better.

Listen and give ear
and promise you’ll not fear
your husband or your wife
and respect eacch other all your life.

There’s daylight throughout the year
my daughter and sons of age.
Nev’r fight another,control your rage.
Respect each other ,distribute yor heritage
and pass it to young generation.

Child slain

By whose’s hand was this child slain?
So young at this age and harmless
is it revenge leaving her mother in such pain?
How could men be so godless?
Surely there’s something wrong in Their brain.
Or their hearts are as bold and plain.
They deserve to be amerced with heavy fine.
Though child slain wasn’t mine
my heart ache for that womb she was born.
Though i know not her mother as a friend
am sure she feels the life of those man must end.
For all the pain and tears her child shed,
the child’s life is gone
but her killers inhale well fed in jail.

Secrecy Bill

White paper burns, as hot as a flame
Just printing with censors, not the governments shame
The red in our flag, is it the colour of blood?
Of our human rights, flowing away like a flood?

Don’t hide away, let us see the corruption
The country must not go deeper, no economic suction
But as a united country, we must not yield
We must play the best with the cards we are dealed

So let’s turn our pages into pages of truth
With plain hard facts, understood without being a sleuth
Eliminate the cowardly cloud of secrecy that’s hovering,
We must protest and demand to see what they’re covering

We must know about bribery, corruption and dealings
Doesn’t it take away our expression and feelings?
This bill can prosecute a journalist or a whistleblower
For telling their secrets, could we sink any lower?

In these dark times, where is the light
Oblivious to what’s going on, how can we fight?