Archives for 2014

Never thought I’d meet a Morning star in my life;

Or understand a father’s daughter bieng the apple of his eye;

Today I met an Angel that escaped from Heaven’s sky;

I wonder if God sent you cause He heard my heart’s cry;

 

 

See I’ve done love all wrong and all right;

But it always failed no matter how hard I seemed to try;

So I gave up on finding the love of my life;

But it’s always been weighing heavy on my mind;

 

 

See I’ve lived my life as an outlaw and thug;

Never caring about finding true love;

But as time passed by I’ve grown up;

And my soul is in need of some comfort;

 

 

But I’ve been damged so that I find it hard to trust;

And so I’ve rolled solo never looking to make me an “us”;

But today after meeting you I’ve found that no matter what and after it all;

That girl, sometimes even Thugs fall

 

How do you say sorry when your heart knows you’re the one to blame?
How do you reverse the tears that you forced upon her beautiful face?
How do you erase the hurtful memories you engraved upon her mind;
How can you undo the hurt if you can’t rewind the hands of time?

I’ve tried to pray, but they just come back marked “return to sender” bouncing off Heaven’s gates;
I’ve tried to play it off in hopes she’d forget but she reminds me like every day;
I try to walk away but I just can’t find an escape;
I’m followed by the remnants of yesterday;

So I turn to those worldly things I know;
Hennessy and blessed lines just to calm my soul;
You think you have an idea nigga, but you don’t know;
Life’s road feels the same every day no matter how far you go;

Try and hit U-turns in life just to escape, but it shows me a new road every time like an updated GPS;
It’s like a journey you endure but in the end you fail the quest;
Life’s like a puzzle with a missing piece, a f*cking mess;
Or like the freedom of free falling but dying in the decent;

How do I forget the pain of constant regret?;
How do I avoid the mistakes I still haven’t met?
These are the questions I ask, but no one has been able to answer me yet…

There’s something on my mind I’d like you to know;

True love never dies even if you chose to go;

It’s been years but within my heart it just seemed to grow;

I know I messed up girl, but I was too young to know;

 

I never knew about love, I was so used to bitches and one night stands;

When I found you I was still a player and not yet a man;

But things have changed and now I finally understand;

Could you consider giving us another chance?;

 

If it’s too late girl don’t be afraid to break my heart;

My hearts used to being torn apart;

Just be honest and that would be more than enough;

If you don’t feel the same as me and you’ve lost the love;

 

I know I let you down more times than I could count;

And I broke your heart and instilled never ending doubt;

I know I betrayed so many times your trust;

But I’ve grown and I know I can make a better us;

 

I’m sorry for all the nights I left you drowning in tears;

And I’m sorry for all the times you said you loved me that I didn’t want to hear;

I’m sorry for putting my friends before you and I;

And I’m sorry for leaving you alone all those nights;

 

I miss that old school kind of love that’s almost impossible to find;

When a girl loved me unconditionally all the time;

When I didn’t need money or fancy cars;

She just wanted me no matter who I was;

 

All I’ve found now days are games people call love;

I didn’t know the rules so I was taken advantage of;

I’ve been broken, bruised and used ever since us;

I’ve been given back all those tears I made you cry;

And I’ve been fed those same lies I fed you once upon a time;

 

Now I’ve had a lot of girls in my lifetime;

So I know it’s not that I’m just stuck on you and I;

It must be true love, cause since us another girl like you I have yet to find;

The love you gave me was like a legacy, one of a kind;

 

The last girl I had was karma paying me back;

For all the times I hurt you and treated you bad;

She did to me like I did to you, I never knew how I hurt you till I felt that same pain;

Now that I know I wish I never did you that way;

 

But when a man’s blind and it’s too late;

What does he do when he finds out but doesn’t have the power to go back in time to enforce change?

Time moves forward, yet every day I wish it was like PVR and I could go back to that first day;

With what I know now because if I could I’d have never let you slip away;

 

I’d appreciate every second with you as if it were the last;

If I could you still be here and not someone I miss from my past

 

You were that gold I missed in that slipstream;

You are that breeze I felt but missed the wind;

You are that incomplete puzzle because of 1 missing piece;

You are that storm that’s missing a strong wind;

 

My life without you is like a face without a name;

Like a performance with a stage;

Like a path that’s lost it’s way;

Like a book with a missing page;

 

Life without you is like a Durban july without the race;

Like a debate team with nothing to say;

Like a dock without a bay;

Like a morning without a day;

 

Life without you is like a coin with one side;

Like a song without a line;

Like a superstar without a mic;

Life without you is like sun without the shine;

 

Like clouds without rain;

Like a past without yesterday;

Like regret without the pain;

Like hell without the flame;

 

Life without you my girl is like going to jail without doing the crime;

Like a romantic dinner without wine;

Like angels without wings;

Like gambling and never winning a thing;

 

Like overcoming a level but never being able to win;

Like entering Heaven filled with sin;

 

Got you on my mind;
Thought that it would fade but it’s like all the time;
Do I ever cross your mind?;
Like you do mine?;

I miss you more than just a little bit;
Just like a drug, I’m happy when I take it;
But when the high fades I beg to quit;
Yet 2 days later I’m back on that same shit;

I wish at times that we never met;
But like 2 sides of the same coin, without you I could never achieve my intended purpose;
Because of you I became the best;
I’m in a catch 22;

My heart and mind are in a constant war because of you;
Like a never ending conflict between the Muslims and Jews;
See no matter how I try girl, I just can’t seem to forget you….

If I could go back in time, I wouldn’t think twice;

To go back to before the first tear I ever made you cry;

Or to before our very first fight;

Back to before I ever left you alone for even one night;

 

Back to before I treated you cold and unkind;

And back to before I was unfaithful when you weren’t by my side;

Back to before I told you that very first lie;

If I could go back in time girl, I wouldn’t think twice;

 

So I could make things right;

And bring back the love of my life

 

Weep not for me
My fall from the tree is not a phthisis
But an arcane concatenate series of nature
In which my life is ceaseless

Upon reaching the ground I do not become fallow
,But soon enhance its fecundity by turning into humus
The ground inturn feeds my life that is contained in a tree
And soon will shoot ,sprout and spread into sparkling fresh verve
So beautifully free
My fall is not a crisis

Negative minds consider my fall as doom
As my very destruction and disastrous finis
For their hearts are empty of wisdom and barren of hope
When a bad situation befalls you
Never abjure
But arise and shine again
Channel that negative energy into positive results
Keep your flame of hope aglow
With your heart so fat and full of faith

For when I gently float to the ground mine life is only beginning
Therefore,I know not defeat
Am always successful
Let your tears of doom be gushes of bliss
Because I am the indomitable Adamas