Who Am I?

Ask me who M I and
I will pop, my eyes and
Stutle like, I’ve been
Pointed with a Gun,
Right at my back Bone
And my Gut will be telling
Me that God, is Watching
Over the beset me.

Between and beside,
Those, who know me, I will
Never be able to define
The inside executed,
Cold-blooded, code of
What I really consist of.
I take words from others, intergrade
Them to form a revelation
Of what is me, that is not real.

I Coast upon my faith,and
Delight over others mistakes,
Ia|m not innocent , M just
Surrounded by mercy,
That keeps striving me
To trail me to the right track,
Though I feel like sometime
Life has grudges over me
And I’ve never hurt the
Universe or cursed God
But I find it difficult to
Believe that I am also
Loved like the children. Of
Israel.

I’ve never had the audacity
To define who M I, I cannot,
Point out,, many successful,
Stories, I’ve encountered, since
I saw myself in the mirror,
I’ve always found myself, ashamed
Of what I uncover beneath the towel.

Who M I, its just a question
I cannot take upon, myself,
I’d rather sit-dead in my
Room and have the walls, closing
Up on me, painting themselves blue than speaking senseless Words
To fill my void.

I’ve always fall short, of decorated,words,
I can explain myself, my flaws, always
Flare, when I am around a spirit, and I
M afraid that fame will destroy me. And take
Me back to the mud-house that
I was born at..iam not fortunate
To lay my hands in the fire and
Resist the pain.

Who M I, ke santse ke le ka. Go
Fumana karabo, maybe I might find
Myself inbetween my granfathers
Tales. He used to share
When we gather around
The fire. I cannot,
Change the world, because I don’t
Know, much about it. But if
You hold, my hand and walk with me
Step, by step, I will be able to rediscover and
Define the inside me. I will be able to
Tell a word, without, shining, and laughing
My shame aways, struggling, to maintain, the infuse Peace within my pain.

I cannot say who m I, M still
Fixing the blister, and building,
My confidence, so when I see the
Ocean, I will not be intimidated, by how far it, flows and float on the ground, I’ve not
Yet reached the point, where I can say this
Is the finishing line, but everyday becomes
A race that sometimes result in pain.

I choose to be distant from
The questions, that makes me Isolated,
When intergtated, the stars and kings
Can shine hard, that even my light can not
Be able to stand in the bright. There is a
Leak, between my faith and words, so
I laze unto my silence that takes me
To a place, that I will work for 6 days and
Rest in the 7day and lift up my strength.
Then asked who M I , I’ll tell them, I am Gods best Made. I am who God says I am. This is who I am

Reaching For The Rain

Another Monday filtered in,
Enticing, and rapidly racing,
Like my weakened heart,
It’s come and gone;
Chores are done;
My spirit lies incomplete,
As sordid envy,
Enclosed in the refusal to forsake all others;
My heart still has a price to pay.

Then for a moment,
A brief breath away,
From the depths of seeming madness;
I gaze outside this window,
Framed. Alive. A beautiful barrier.
I see the rain…

Its raining again,
Pitter-patter raindrops,
Crashing gently against the dry, thirsty earth,
Crashing violently against my parched,weary soul;
The awareness of an endless storm raging within.

I’m on the inside,
And it’s still raining.
I see Love in the rain;
The labour of an unspoken grace;
The fortitude of being vested on the inside,
Sentenced by the power to resist.

I can feel the rain falling on me;
The freedom of residing in the inner courts;
Who’s to judge it’s worthiness?
As I navigate the threads of truth;
A limited pursuit;
Soul-less, drenched and dried.

Remain on the inside,
There where the rain still reaches;
Quite the words that intend to bring solace,
And clad the purer parts of you in a trench-coat;
Do not fear to tread upon,
The many colours of secret spaces
And stay silent in the midst of peace.

Come out of your hiding place,
Like the umbrella who brings
A yearned for freedom,
Under-written and undeserved;
And cover my vacant soul
Before it starts to rain again.

The Loss

The water spilt…
The sun took cover in the mountains depths
Darkness made his way to inner land and into our home.
The joy that came with the morning rise,
Was sucked in dry by the sponge that rested in our joyful stream,
The smiles were wiped away;
The only light we had was the comfort from the moon
And the candle light from those we grieved with.

If life’s intention was only a story book this thick,
That only allowed us to go this far,
So the pages in our story ended in the tragedy of yesterday;
I wish to own a magic stick,
So I can re-live the former pages that contain your existence.
If life’s intention is that I carry on further than today,
I wish to own a magic wand,
So we can re-write a different tale from this.

Time will heal…
We’ve reached a chapter where such words are meaningless,
Where all we hoped and believed in has come to test,
And only higher powers make sense.
Though no one understands the heart behind the smile,
And the number of tears we shed;
With my eyes closed I still see your form and long to hold you dearly,
But all I could hold is a bouquet of beautiful memories.

The sun made its way back to inner land and into our homes,
And with it joy and a privilege for knowing someone like…. (You)
Wish God could have spared you just for a few more years;
But you honoured a request from the Father’s call.
The peace within helped us look beyond earth’s shadows,
Gratitude for the stories we wrote yesterday,
Made its way in our hearts;
You were another beautiful flower picked from His beautiful garden.

Failure is Success

Allow me to try and fail but not fail to try
Aim high but not yet reach the skyline
Even thou things may not go right, bright days turn into dark night
Il keep growing strong till I find my armoured knight.

I wont give up
As tears stream down like on my window pane
I wont let my thoughts go astray
I will take another chance, another leap of faith
Until this dream of mine is uncaged

Even when life throws its twists and turns
Through pitfalls and sea saws, there are things on learns
Il persist on even as the pace seem slow
As I know success will come within another blow

Success is failure turned inside out
It will come after I conquer my doubts
Break free and take on a new lease on life
For failure is just success wrapped up tight

So allow me to try and fail but not fail to try
Because soon I will reach the skyline
As things go right and each day is a bit bright
I will stand tall and be that armoured knight.

The dying soul

How possible can that be?
How true can that be truthful?
How can that be truthful ,can a soul ever die?

There is a hummer that could bring a soul to die.
There is a sword that could bring a soul to bleed.

Your words can break lives.
Your word can kill souls.
You are the master of your mouth.
You are the king of your words.
Be care full of what you say because your words can put a soul to death.

SIZALELWE UNYANA

Singa singanokudumisa
Singa singanokubonga
Emhlabeni ezantsi
Phezulu ezulwini akafumanekanga ofana nawe

Uyingcwele,uyingcwele uThixo usomandla
Uzele luthando nobubele bomntu ongumoni
Mnini nto zonke mthetheli woxolo
Lolwani na olunje na uthando
Mbangi yini na ukuncekelelwa nguwe
Uzazisile sasuka asakwazi
Uzisondezile sasuka sakutyeshela

Wayikhawula intombi yomntu ngomoya
Wamthumela unyana wakho ezantsi emhlabeni
Besibe singazi
Besibe singaqondi
Sizalelwe unyana
wehlela ezantsi ngokuzithuba unyangelemihla
wazalelwa estalini samahashe
wayikhulula ingubo yobukhosi ukuze sibenobomi
sibenabo nangakumbi

sathwala ubutyebi nobuhlwempu ezintlokweni zethu
sathwala ububi belizwe
samfameka sibona
saziswa sangafuni kwazi,ingaba besingazi na

Until Forever Lives Unopened…

Love came and Love ran
as fast as a violent wind.
These pensive euphoric thoughts,
seemed to have birthed the omen within.
Feasting on visions of the white veil;
Will his heart stop?
But Love came crashing down;
And it was my heart that stopped.
Devoured in seconds
like a scavenging vulture;
With all our hopes and dreams lying
like scattered debris along the roadside.

It was sudden and it was tragic;
It wrenched my heart and it tore my soul,
As Forever quickly faded into nothingness…

Seated at the table of his first touch;
Will my soul explode?
But Love was never born.
Exceeding the dictates of coldness
And morbid excuses;
As distant as the fascination of
a directionless ship;
No compass. No North Star.
A shadow. A smiling imposter.
Blinded by his pretentious rays,
I kissed Love’s cruel counterfeit;
And Deception the mighty ruler reigned.

And I am the one who missed your voice;
And I am the one who will love the one who’s unloved;
Soaked in healing rain;
The glass will mend while the cracks remain;
And I am the one who stores you away,
And there you will lurk sealed and safe
Until Forever lives unopened

DIE AANGESIG VAN LIEFDE/THE FACE OF LOVE

DIE AANGESIG VAN LIEFDE

Wanneer ek na jou beeld staar
sien ek almal wie ek het en ooit sal liefhê
en jou oë ‘n blou somerslug
wat die kern van my siel opwarm
Die albaster perfeksie van jou gelaat
bekroon jou glansende skoonheid
Jou uitlokkende mond trek my nader
om jou soet smaak te geniet
om jou geheime te raai
versteek agter ‘n enigmatiese glimlag
Jy is soos ‘n geheime rendezvous
begeer deur almal
Tyd kan nie gedifineer word nie
want jy is oneindigend
in jou vryheid
Gesig van my geliefde
die aangesig van liefde

THE FACE OF LOVE

When I gaze upon your countenance
I see all who I have and will still love
and your eyes a blue summer sky
warming the very core of my being
The alabaster perfection of your skin
crowning your lustrous beauty
Your inviting mouth drawing me in
to savour your sweet taste
to guess at your secrets
hidden behind an enigmatic smile
You are like a secret rendezvous
hankered after by all
Time cannot be defined
for you are infinite
in your freedom
Face of my beloved
the face of love

Inspired by:
The Face of Love, by Ingrid Jonker

No Pain Just Go Insane

Being the very best is hard…
it means you must walk the extra yard…
never give up…just never give in….stay true to who you are….you are the one who sets the bar …set you’re mind to it…..within you’re hart you will do it…don’t be afraid to fail…….if you’re soul is strong you will prevail ….if you fall ,get back up and keep walking tall

wild times

broke as shit…my financial status about to make me flip..down a jaga,,go on a wild trip…..hit the rollette …4 out of 4 neva to regret .on my way home as the thickness of my wallet has grown…think ill make it now,luck on my side,rainman the one whom made me more wise,thank you for the riches,thank you for keeping it within the triple digits ……..let it rain….let it fall as money keeps us walking tall….we are free,,,we can now see…face it without fear..face it with no regret wich always ends with a tear…