It’s been a while girl since we last kissed;
But since you left I’ve been missing you every single day since;
I never knew how much I needed you until I realised without a princess how could I still feel like a prince;
I’ve wanted to end my life a few times I have to sadly admit;
Everytime I tried the thought of my mamma in tears made my quit;
I started sipping the pain away with glasses of hennessy, I just missed you more with every sip;
You never once called me to ask if I was doing fine;
I tried calling alot but all I got was a busy line;
I guess you were hitting the red button instead of the green;
Everytime you saw the number calling you was me;
Mistakes I made is what turned what we have into what used to be;
In the arms of another I watched from the sidelines helplessly;
Turned away so you wouldn’t see a thug cry;
At home alone feeling like I wanted to die;
Trying to subside the pain by laying with different bitches every night;
Nothing changed I just felt more empty inside;
Begging God to end what’s left of my life;
Circling the block just to ease my mind;
While escaping the memories we made in my room every other night;
Fast forward a few years and I’m doing just fine;
Fame and fortune changed my life;
My name’s written in the stars, you can spell it now if you look at them late at night;
You’d think you’ll be the last girl on my mind;
Now that I got models by my side;
That’s far from the truth, my heart still beats your name;
You’re still so heavy on my brain;
I still wish you wake up beside me every day;
I can’t help it my heart still has that flame;
I don’t show it much so nobody even knows your name;
They know you by you birth date;
Most of my poems are titled 20.09.90, you may be gone but my love remains the same;
I don’t understand it, my heart refuses to explain;
I’ve learned to live with it like a person living with chronic AIDS;
Nothing I do can stop me from feeling this way;
I know it’s pointless writing these poems, well it keeps me sane;
I don’t know why all I know is you’re still the one I miss every other day