Archives for February 2015

Survived the storm

Have you ever wished that there was no such thing as jealous? This story is my would be life; the life which came to abrupt halt by jealousy and greed. The life which i wanted so bad;thrown to ash in the blink of an eye…

It was about 10years ago when i completed my matric.Everything was perfect ,i wanted to make it big in life.All i wanted was the best for my family; i was willing to work hard and make that happen,luckily my grandfather had been saving all these years for my tertiary education.I was the first in the family to complete matric and go study at a college.

I worked hard when i got there because i knew where im from and i did wana dissapoint my family,Everything was running smooth until i finish my first semester and when i was supposed to do my second simester people started talking
and because my grandfather was too old he was convinced by a neighbour to stop paying for my studies: he didnt want to do that but ended up doing it anyway and i had to drop out.

It felt like stap that wasnt bleeding and i was scared to go home in that mind people will laugh at,its a very big pain when someone wants something bad enough and people keep on taking it away.For the first time in my life i was working as a domestic worker and i knew i was gona go back and finish where i left of with that money and for love my mother had for me,i was stronger than ever and was ready to face the world.She used to buy me smaller things i needed every month end and i was like any other girl my age but still i was angry and i have decided to turn to alcohol for comfort,i bought bought alcohol for me and my friends but then this was somehow becomung a habit so i was back to square one…..continues

“You reap what you sow”

Be inspired to do what is good,
Don’t stop learning;
You will reap what you sow
Good trees brings; good fruits
Bad tress brings; bad fruits,
Learn what you need,
And you will prosper.

To my friend my crush

Im attracted to this man
who respects me
His loving is the best
He got me thinking
ringing bells
I see us getting married
I see my mother there
I see us holding hands
exchanging the rings
With him i’ve got pride and
a million dollar smile
I see the bright and
with him got no doupts

“why you recite my commandments”

The Lord said to the wicked
Why you recite my commandments;
And hate to be control by it.

You read the bible,
And after you don’t do
What the bible has said;
You hate what the Lord,
Has commanded;
You refuse what the bible instruct,
But you study it;
God will destroy you forever.

The bible says; do not steal
But you steal;
And commit adultery.

On Illness in Southern Africa (a poem in experimental haiku)

Cracks. Healthy fiction –
Pomegranates. Troubled life.
Bleeding fruit. Cement.

Diary of Salt Lake –
Passage into Bethelsdorp.
Myths of beloveds.

Roses. Stars. They hover –
Suffering has a numbed womb.
Cross the seas threshold.

Honed crystalline grief –
Life in the Northern Areas
Quotes luminous cores.

Houses should have dogs –
Walk, dig holes or cha-cha with them.
You’ll relive childhood.

The One I Miss Every Other Day

It’s been a while girl since we last kissed;

But since you left I’ve been missing you every single day since;

I never knew how much I needed you until I realised without a princess how could I still feel like a prince;

I’ve wanted to end my life a few times I have to sadly admit;

 

Everytime I tried the thought of my mamma in tears made my quit;

I started sipping the pain away with glasses of hennessy, I just missed you more with every sip;

You never once called me to ask if I was doing fine;

I tried calling alot but all I got was a busy line;

 

I guess you were hitting the red button instead of the green;

Everytime you saw the number calling you was me;

Mistakes I made is what turned what we have into what used to be;

In the arms of another I watched from the sidelines helplessly;

 

Turned away so you wouldn’t see a thug cry;

At home alone feeling like I wanted to die;

Trying to subside the pain by laying with different bitches every night;

Nothing changed I just felt more empty inside;

 

Begging God to end what’s left of my life;

Circling the block just to ease my mind;

While escaping the memories we made in my room every other night;

Fast forward a few years and I’m doing just fine;

 

Fame and fortune changed my life;

My name’s written in the stars, you can spell it now if you look at them late at night;

You’d think you’ll be the last girl on my mind;

Now that I got models by my side;

 

That’s far from the truth, my heart still beats your name;

You’re still so heavy on my brain;

I still wish you wake up beside me every day;

I can’t help it my heart still has that flame;

 

I don’t show it much so nobody even knows your name;

They know you by you birth date;

Most of my poems are titled 20.09.90, you may be gone but my love remains the same;

I don’t understand it, my heart refuses to explain;

 

I’ve learned to live with it like a person living with chronic AIDS;

Nothing I do can stop me from feeling this way;

I know it’s pointless writing these poems, well it keeps me sane;

I don’t know why all I know is you’re still the one I miss every other day

Second To Let You Know

I’ve been in love a time or two;
But love feels different babygirl with you;
Doubt and fear are seemingly things of the past;
Somehow my heart knows what my mind can’t see,that this time its going to last;

What makes you different from the rest;
I’m not sure but I know you were heaven sent;
All the tears I cried were worth it in the end;
You make my life worth all the mess;

I can be myself without trying to pretend;
You love this crazy me and that means the world to me;
You love the man you see;
Somehow I know deep within we were meant to meet;

Way before God created the rivers,mountains and seas;
He already made you just for me;
Some may say im being a little extreme;
But how would they know if they never loved like you love silly old me;

Perhaps im wrong,I’m human so that could be;
But I’m willing to give it my all one last time;
If I loose at least I can say I tried;
If I win well then finally I’ll make you mine;

I used to hate love but you changed my mind;
I said I’d never fall again because of the last time;
You made falling a must and not a choice of mine;
Love was never as good as today girl did you know that you’re the reason why;

I gave love that one more try;
Beyond your obvious beauty your ways are like food to my soul;
I cherish you more than gold;
Girl I just thought I’d take a second to let you know