Archives for July 2015

I will sing Your praise;

Everyday until my last breath from my soul finally escapes;

For someone so wretched as I You died just too save;

No one else would have done it, no one else could care half as much;

 

But You thought my soul worthy enough that You sent Your only son;

Some people only see my faults, that’s all they seem to see;

But Lord You see my flaws as attributes within me;

You consider me priceless, a price tag my eyes fail to see;

 

For when I look into the mirror, a worm is what reflects back at me;

Everyday my sinful and selfish ways hang You back as a cursed man on that tree;

Yet no matter what I do, You always find a way to supply every single one of my needs;

How can such a wonderful man such as You invest so much in a wretch as me;

 

You blessed me with a gift of words for me to give You praise;

Instead I use it for my own selfish ways;

By manipulating women and leading their hearts astray;

Leaving a ton of heartache in my wake;

 

A love like Yours I could never repay;

The mercy and grace alone would leave me in bankruptcy every day;

You saved me when You didn’t have too, I don’t just love You, I fell deep in love with You because of Your gentle ways;

You look past my sins as if I never sinned in the very first place;

 

When I ignore Your voice, You bless me anyway;

When I feel furtherest away from You, You make sure to bless me twice as much, as if to say;

My mistakes and flaws give You the biggest sense of purpose and praise;

So as for me Lord as I can say is ,Thank You Lord for all you’ve done for me when I didn’t deserve any kind of mercy or grace.

Dear love of my life, I’ve decided to write you a letter to explain;

Why when you come home tonight I won’t be there waiting up like always;

Instead my things have been packed and I’ll be long on my way;

You may be confused cause it seemed we were deep in love just the other day;

 

I’d be a fool if I carried on acting as if nothing has changed;

Its been two months now that I’ve noticed something a little strange;

Your kisses have become few and cold;

Your phonecalls to say you miss me have become as rare as gold;

 

The little things you used to do to show me you love me are a thing of the past;

You’ve been coming home later with each night, “Work” is your excuse whenever I ask;

I tried to believe your every word giving you the benifit of the doubt;

When my heart was like it’s time to bounce;

 

I didn’t want to jump the gun and start to accuse;

I had no evidence and no reason too;

But girl I know the signs of failing love, when you’ve been replaced by someone new;

It’s become too much for me to bear, so I’m writing this to say goodbye to me and you;

 

Please don’t call or text me to explain or tell me your point of view;

I know the deal girl and I don’t need to hear another excuse;

When we started you promised me you were different and you’ll never run me through;

Yet here we are and you’re doing what you promised me you’ll never do.

 

My set of keys are on the table with all the gifts you once gave to me;

All the letters you wrote as well as the cards I’ve burned to set my soul free;

I don’t want to know his name or where you two met, I just want you to leave me be;

Girl I wish you well and hope he turns out to be what you never saw in me.

 

When you told me you was leaving, I didn’t pay your words any mind;

I thought you was just bluffin and you’d be back in a day or two like all the other times you bid our love goodbye;

A week passed without a word and I wondered could you have meant goodbye this time;

A month on and I was in town trying to forget about you, then as if scripted you passed me by;

 

You looked at me like you did that very first time we met;

A smile, yes one in a millon it’s true, to amazing to forget;

I wanted to reach out and hold you tight and whisper “I’m so sorry” but I walked on by instead;

I smiled while you were watching, but I cried the moment you turned your head;

 

You thought that I never loved you and it made up your mind that you did the right thing when you up and left;

Your family were happy that I was out of your life and so too were your so called friends;

Truth is I loved you more than any words could say, I don’t care what them m*therf*ckers said;

I knew I had messed up so much and the damage was already done, before you ever said goodbye our love had already hit a dead end;

 

I don’t think a thing would have changed, you’d just get an ego boost if I stopped to beg, then you’d probably take that long overdue revenge;

I didn’t want that to happen, us breaking up and then getting back together over and over again;

I’ve been there before girl and it left my heart in a mess;

That’s why I hurt you in the first place, I was hurt that way by the girl before you and I ever met;

 

I didn’t want to go out that way, becoming the “one” you wished you never loved and instead of a memory I become just another regret;

See I heard all them stories and the things you chose too believe, making me out to be a bad man,when I just a man who lacked a little common sense;

But I faced all the pain and all the lies and even your family’s ice cold stares;

I didn’t take the chance to defend myself and tell you the truth about why I couldn’t show you the kind of love you really deserved;

 

You had already made up your mind and left out love for dead;

Watching me as I picked up the broken pieces you had left;

I cried, Lord knows I cried, You were the motivation behind every tear filled prayer I said;

Tears you never saw, things I never told you, you thought I never felt a thing, but girl I did and still do, it’s been 6 years and I haven’t gotten over you yet;

 

For that reason I must have been easier to forget;

It wasn’t long after you and I came to an end;

That you and your now husband met;

You;ve been married for a few years now girl, perhaps you finally understan why I chose to walk past you that day instead of trying to beg;

 

I never did that to hurt you, I did that so you would find it easier to move on and fall in love someday again;

I loved you that much that I thought about your future instead of mine, God knows I’d given anything to rewind the hands of time;

I fought everyday just to survive, I kept on forgetting to forget about you, I knew it would be a long term invesment for your life;

See the girl before you did me in and I refused to do you the same, so I sacrified my own heart to stop the cycle of pain;

 

I loved you more than I ever showed you, it’s hard to give love if your hearts in pieces, I shouldn’t have did you that way in the first place;

So I decided to do right by you and try and make up for all the mistakes I once made;

I still miss you even though I never called to say;

I knew I had to set you free, sending you messages and calling you would have hurt you more, it was the hardest thing to do, I almost gave in every day;

 

Just like Jesus knew He had to died for the greater good, I had to do the same;

I always loved you 20.09.90, that will never ever change;

I know when we meet in heaven you look at me from a distance with a huge smile on your face;

As you silently thank me for not begging you to stay.