Don’t you think it’s a little too late;

To come to me now and admit leaving was a big mistake;

When you left as I begged you to stay with tears streaming down my face;

You laughed and watched my heart break;

 

For months I gave chase;

Trying to get you back with whatever it would take;

You ignored all the calls I used to make;

And the messages I sent you,you ignored as I waited for the replies that never ever came;

 

You made fun of me with your friends while laughing in my face;

You walked with him hand in hand and made sure I saw you in every public place;

You passed by with a smile as you watched tears fall two by two;

Saying I should man up, knowing how hard that was to do;

 

Eventually I was made to give up the chase;

And endless nights of pain I was forced to face;

Never thinking I’d ever be able to stand alone again;

It took some time but I patched my heart;

 

Tried to let go of you and think of you as a lesson learnt from my past;

Years rolled by and I missed you more and more as I wore a smiling mask;

I was mad at God cause he took away my reason for breathing;

If only I knew in time my feelings would change like the seasons;

 

I never thought I’d ever hear from you again;

I thought I was just another game you played;

Yet here you are today;

Girl don’t you think you’re a little too late?

 

It’s been years since you walk away;

Never giving me reasons, forcing me to endure regrets that never seemed to fade;

And memories haunting me like a shadow that never goes away;

Do you understand what you forced me to go through?

 

I couldn’t sleep in my bed, cause it’s where I made love to you;

I lay on the cold floor in front of the tv;

It’s the only way I could fall asleep;

As pictures played in my mind on constant repeat;

 

Of him sexing you up like I used too;

Do you know about that pain the pain I never put you through?

Do you know I couldn’t sit in peace alone in my room;

I had to circle the block every day a time or two;

 

So I could cry and try and forget about you;

I’m sorry that leaving wasn’t as easy for me to do;

Do you know how it feels to love someone who doesn’t love you;

And that you’ll never get them back no matter what you do;

 

Do you know how it feels to pray and God ignores you with tears in His eyes;

Knowing that you leaving was a blessing in disguise?;

He never told me it took me years to realize;

And how I regret all that wasted time;

 

Chasing a girl who will never be mine;

Do you know how it feels when God is the only one catching tears;

Tears He never even made you cry, do you know how it feels?

When the one you gave your heart too doesn’t want you near;

 

And ignores all your calls;

Moves on with someone else while they still have your all;

Do you know how it feels when your mother cries with you and doesn’t understand the reasons why;

Or too see a shadow of her only child;

And she can’t do anything to make her child smile;

 

I don’t think you understand how much you put me through;

I don’t have the time to go back in my mind and explain these things to you;

I think you woke up a little too late;

Goodbye is all I am prepared to say;

 

Don’t look at these tears falling from my eyes;

It’s just reminders of the hurt I’m trying to hide;

I don’t miss you so please leave and don’t look behind;

I love you but I can’t take you back no matter how hard I try;

 

Sorry came a little too late;

I hope you’ve learnt from your little mistake;

And you hold on tightly to true love if ever it comes back your way;

Girl, goodbye I’m sorry,you’re just a little too late

Thousand rand shopping sprees;
Expesive colognes and bitches next me;
Get home and I drink expensive liquor while listening to imported cd’s;
As I lay alone I think what does all of this shit mean;

How long can I go on living this way;
Outside I’m ballin’ everyday like it ain’t no thang;
Yet inside I’m dying and nobody seems to see;
Behind this smile is a dying man on the brink;

Substance abuse just to have a little peace;
But the more I drink and slide behind white lines I only strengthen these demons within;
Will peace only return when I die;
And return to my birth place in the sky;

I can only assume that God’s looking down at me askin why;
I wish I knew the reasons so I could undo this death sentence called my life;

Nobody understands my tears or why I cry out loud;
I should be smiling, I own a bottemless bank account;
But have you ever had all you want but nothing you need?

Have you ever been surround by a sea of people and feel so lonely?
Well money cant buy love and fame cant rewind the hands of time;
And popularity can’t subside the pain that dwells deep inside;

My knees are skinless from all the prayers I’ve sent up to the sky;
It’s been years and I’m still waiting on that reply;
Whats my purpose why was I sent to this life;
Can somebody help me understand the reasons why;

I sin all the time yet im still alive;
I should be dead and someone else should be using up my time;
I chased an empty pipe dream only now I’ve come to realise;
That all my life I’ve been throwing away blessings while chasing a lie

It’s been a while since you and I;

I do admit it was nice spending a little time;

With you, I missed those beautiful ebony eyes;

And that sensual smile that always drove me wild;

 

How could I forget that naughty little laugh;

I wish you were part of my future and not just a thing of the past;

I know I could have worked a little harder to make us last;

In my opinion we ended just a little too fast;

 

I know you have another man who occupies your tender heart;

I’m glad you’re happy even if I’m no longer the leading man and I’m now just another member of the cast;

I never wished you any harm;

Even though you made living without you quite hard;

 

Unlike you I haven’t found love or made a brand new start at all;

I just couldn’t recover from our fall;

When we started dating I told you this is the last time;

I kept my word I’ve been without love since you last were mine;

 

I’m glad we’re better friends than we ever were lovers it’s true;

And at times I can’t help but miss me and you;

I miss mostly the times we shared and the things we used to do;

And how I made you laugh constantly without even trying too;

 

I can’t say if you gave me a chance today;

That I’d take you back, too much has changed;

We both have matured, things just ain’t the same;

Smoke is all that’s left of that lover’s flame;

 

I do sometimes replay in my mind;

If I did things differently would you still be mine;

But then I know everything happens for a reason, it’s simply called life;

I do though admit, it would have been kind of cool if you were going to be my wife;

 

Or even the mother of my first child;

I trust God so I ain’t mad;

Things happen, things us mortals won’t understand;

God is the one with the master plan;

 

I think I found out why He sent you my way;

Ever since you, I’ve become a better man than the man I was in my younger days;

So in that sense I’m even glad about the tears and the heartache;

For if it wasn’t for you, I’d still be that fool and not the man I am today;

 

So thank you for the little time we had;

And for all the stupid things I did, my bad;

For the friendship we have today I’m glad;

You were the best girl I ever had.

I miss you and it’s so obvious to see;

Even if I still pretend that you me nothing to me;

I have my heart but you own the key;

If only you knew how I really feel;

 

I go out every night in hopes to forget about what used to be;

Only to find that I’m still bound by your endless beauty;

She tries to offer me peace as she lays by my side;

I act as if I feel the same when I know it’s all a lie;

 

You’re on my mind all the time;

Wondering who’s loving the girl I used to call mine;

The one I thought I’d love for more than a just one lifetime;

I never planned to be without you that’s why it’s so hard to take;

 

I thought this was true love when it was just a mistake;

I thought this was real when it was all fake;

I subside my pain with alcohol just to get through every day;

You took my soul with you when you walked away;

 

The rise with you was worth the fall;

I dial your number but before you pick up I end the call;

It’s childish I know but what else can I do;

When all I seem to do is think about you;

 

Maybe I should just try harder to let go;

But how can I if you were the essence of my soul;

The only love I’ve ever know;

It’s not as easy for me to do;

 

Finding someone else to replace you;

My love for you was true;

I can pretend I don’t care anymore girl but my heart knows the truth;

I’m only lying to myself when I say I don’t love you, when everyone knows I still do.

 

The only one on my mind is you;

Girl I thought you knew;

Wasn’t it obvious by those simple clues?

That you own my silly heart and still after all this time you do;

 

I’m surrounded by models and angels every day;

They try but they fail to take up your place;

You made my heart your home and that will always be the case;

I love you so much but I don’t have the words to say;

 

Even if my pen writes the truth you can’t see the tears upon my face;

While I miss you but surrounded by fortune and fame;

I’d trade it all just to have you back for just one day;

No matter how I wish or on bended knee I pray;

 

Nothing seems to change;

You still hate me when I still miss your face;

Trying to wipe those endless tears that never seem to fade;

Reminding me of the angel I let slip away;

 

I was too blind too see;

All that I ever needed was right in front of me;

I can’t change the past what’s meant to be will be;

That still doesn’t change how I wish you were still with me;

 

I got your eyes on my mind;

Reminding me of better times;

Like that first day we met;

Or that first kiss that I still can’t forget;

 

I know I broke your heart;

And we are so far apart;

But know this fact to be true;

If I had only oe wish, my only wish would be to be back with you.

 

You were never a mistake, I don’t care what people say;
If you were by chance, you would be the best mistake I’ve ever made;
I’ve been taught that wishes never come true;
But that all changed the day God gave me you;

I’ve always heard about true love;
But never believed it to be true until I had my very first son;
Looked into your eyes for the very first time;
And I knew God heard me every time I cried;

Days I felt all alone and broken inside;
All those times I was broken and never understanding the reasons why;
The rise was worth all the falls;
You were the reason for it all;

If I had too, I’d do it all over again without thinking twice;
And go through all the trials I’ve had in my life;
You made all those hard times easy to take;
They prepared me for this special day;

The day I was given an angel from up above;
In the form of my very first son;
I never understood the bond between a mother and her child;
That she would do anything for her seed even sacrifice her own life;

I’d give up all I have just to keep the smile upon your face;
And I’ll do that until my dying day;
So I don’t care what people say or claim by saying you were a mistake;
Cause even if that was true, my boy you were the best mistake I ever made.

If today was my last day on earth and somehow I knew;

I’d spend my last hours with you;

I’m not sure about my fate when the Lord one day calls me;

Or where I’ll spend eternity;

 

So I want to make my last day as if it was Heaven on earth before I leave;

I’ve had money all my life but never a single day of peace;

I’ve always wanted love but it always slipped away from me;

And left me with tears at night so lonely;

 

But then we met and I finally found sanity;

Who knew, peace and love would come in the form of you;

I was always looking for something else girl that’s the truth;

So if today was my last day to live and somehow I knew;

 

Girl I’d spend every last second loving you.

You are my only regret;

Sometimes I wish that you and I never met;

Even though I was too blame;

Girl ever since I’ve loved you I just haven’t been the same;

 

I keep wishing to go back to the day we had our first fight;

So I could stop myself before I ever made you cry;

Cause I need you here tonight;

I miss you more than I ever thought that I would;

 

In time I thought I’d forget about you;

It’s been years but missing you is all I seem to do;

Love since us has come in and out of my life;

But it’s never felt as right as when love was you and I;

 

I know you don’t care anymore or even feel the same;

Cause so many times I’ve said sorry but all you do is push me away;

I admit I am the one to blame;

But what more do you want me to say?

 

I’ve admitted to every one of my mistakes;

I can’t take back all the tears I once made you cry;

Or even those lonely nights alone when you longed to be by my side;

Sorry is all I can say;

 

I’ve tried it all to get you back but all you do is tell me that it’s far too late;

And that you could never trust me again;

Don’t leave me alone like this;

Cause you’re still the only girl that I miss

 

On this side of Heaven I never thought would come a day;

That an angel would ever come my way;

The Lord heard me as I prayed;

And He allowed an angel called you to escape;

 

Perfection such as yours I know must be heaven made;

Cause eyes like yours steals sunset’s beauty away;

I never thought you’d ever feel the same;

But you did and here we are in love today;

 

Please understand if I take it slow;

It’s so I don’t scare you away and you choose to ever let me go;

It’s not that I don’t love you, I just find it hard to show;

Love before you came damaged my soul;

 

But I’m sure I want to love you the rest of my life;

And If I had my way you’d already be my wife;

If you find this hard to believe sometimes;

Know that my kisses never lie…

Rumours have it that you’re the reason I found fame;

And that every word I wrote was based on you, I just can’t believe you’re so vain;

So I’ve decided to set the record straight;

Even though you thought I loved you, truth is the girl before you occupied that space;

I used you to get over her, I’m sorry to say;

 

You were just another pawn in love’s ruthless game;

I never wanted to tell you the truth or let it come out this way;

But you challenged my talent as if you’re the reason I’m made;

When the truth is I just used you as a Band-Aid;

 

To get over what used to be, I used you as a sex slave;

Like a drug, I used you as an escape;

I may have cried when you left me;

But those were tears of joy and not of pain;

 

I may have used you as an example but that’s exactly how I used you every other day;

So really looking back girl what’s changed?

I ain’t bitter, I’m just upset at all of this;

People around my way saying you’re the reason for my gift;

 

So I decided to retaliate and tell you the shit you never knew;

Girl don’t you think if I really wanted you for life, that I’d still be with you;

I’m sure the questions have surfaced, if that was the case, why’d I run you through?

Maybe it’s because I never gave a fuck about you?

 

You were damaged and easy to fuck, Kirsten my bad,I thought you knew;

But since you claimed my whole book was based on you;

I thought I’d finally tell you the truth;

You weren’t the love of my life, you were just another fucking substitute