There are just something’s that a heart can’t forget;

And loving you is something I haven’t been able to forget ever since you left;

You captured my soul ever since the day we met;

And since then on you my hearts been set;

 

You showed me that real love wasn’t based on pain;

And ever since, I’ve never been able to find love like ours again;

Now days girls make love out to be a game;

And I’ve lost every time that I’ve played;

 

Where is the kind of love I once got from you?

A love that was so true;

When we met girl I was still a prisoner of what used be;

So I couldn’t give you the best of me;

 

I was a causality of love’s cold war;

I was blinded by the pain that you never saw;

I admit I should have told you the truth;

But I was so used to losing love and girl I didn’t want to lose you;

 

So I pretended to love you and lead you on;

I wish I knew that you were the one;

Then I would never have done you wrong;

But now it’s too late;

 

And I can’t get back our yesterdays;

I’d take back all the times I made you cry if I could;

I’ve tried changing your mind, but girl you just refuse;

You say that I should have weighed up the costs;

 

Before I ever hurt you and your love I lost;

Girl life doesn’t have a guide book;

I wish it did, then I’d still be with you;

But since it don’t then I’m sitting alone in my room;

Looking out the window as tears fall from my eyes;

 

The same tears I once made you cry;

I used to choose my friends above you;

And wasted time that I should have been using to love you;

Now all those friends are gone and I’m all alone;

 

Wishing you’d be the next one to call me on the phone;

Every time it rings I rush to pick it up;

Hoping it’s you but it never was;

So I argue every day with God above;

 

Asking Him If He knew I’d be blind and I’d do you so wrong;

Why did He send you at all girl?;

Yes you opened up my eyes and it’s a hard lesson that I’ve learnt;

But this lesson was unnecessary and girl it hurt;

 

I am finally the man you always wished I’d be;

But who do I give this man to now that you no longer next to me;

I treat girls like I should have treated you;

But they play the game of love and yet again I loose;

 

Is this Karma’s way of paying me back for all I put you through;

I’m not sure, all I know is that I’m still in love with you;

I only realised how much I loved you the day you told me that we’re through;

God turns a deaf ear whenever I pray about you and I;

 

Asking Him to send back the only love of my life ;

Although you’ve found someone new, my love for you has never died;

When you left you set the bar of love far too high;

Girls can’t reach that level no matter how hard they try;

I thought I’d forget you after all this time;

 

But I still remember everything we shared as if it happened last night;

I know you tried being friends and it failed;

I can’t just be friends with the girl who once stole my heart away;

You still mean more than this world to me;

 

And at times I still find it hard to breathe;

Whenever our song takes me back in time and I’m haunted by what used to be;

I come to realise that we may never get to love here again on this side of Heaven;

But when I die I asked God to give me the chance to love you once again;

 

So I can take the chances I never did back then;

Cause I’m sure you were the girl that was made just for me;

How can I be so sure people might be thinking;

I’m sure because love was never as perfect as when you once loved me….

 

People say fame and money changed me;

Yes I agree, I’ve learnt that money don’t grow on trees;

Just because I’ve relocated to GP;

Don’t mean I’ve forgotten from where I once came;

 

Secunda will always be my first love come what may;

MP birthed me before fame ever called my name;

And I’ll always give MP its props in everything I say;

Even if those that once surrounded me said I’d fail;

 

I’m a tenacious nigga so I made it anyway;

And although GP is my new home, my love for Secunda will never change;

They were the best memories I ever made;

My very first love that broke my heart;

 

Me and her used to make love at the “Duck Pond”;

And I must admit;

GP is not for the faint of heart, I’ve never been one to quit;

But ever since I’ve moved here, all I’ve endured was shit;

 

There’s constant heat from the Metro Police;

And dead bodies on the highway is all I see;

I wish I could return to MP;

Where life was so easy;

 

Here “friends” I’ve made are all dope fiends;

And at every opportunity them niggas want to do you in;

I’ve only been here for 3 years, but I’ve been shot twice and stabbed numerous times by those I kept closest to me;

Women here I’ve found are A grade ho’s and bitches;

Only chasing white lines and riches;

GP ain’t what they make it out to be;

If I could I’d return to the place that own’s my heart, MP is calling me;

Over time I’ve seen that GP ain’t the place for me;

My nigga’s I miss MP

 

You found me at the bottom of a bottle;

Drowning in the depths of my sorrow;

A stranger gone too far to forgive;

A man dying with no will to live;

 

Then you held me so close to your heart;

And you told me it’s going to be alright;

You’re the reason that I’m still alive;

These are more than just words that I write;

 

So thank you for saving my life;

You came to me and picked me up from the sand;

You wiped my tears away and told me that you understand;

Guess you were my guardian angel, a part of God’s master plan;

 

We’ve been best friends ever since that day;

16 years now and the bond just gets stronger every day;

The love I have for you never changed;

Even though I’ve moved miles away;

 

I tried to call so many times but your number has changed;

I know you must think I forgot about you and made friends new;

When the truth is I’m alone and I’m really missing you;

I trust no one, I’m sure you always knew;

 

At times you’re heavy on my mind;

In my room wiping away the tears that I cry;

Regretful for moving and leaving you behind;

I miss having my best friend by my side;

 

I was always the loud one and you were so quiet;

I always said how I feel and you kept all your feelings inside;

Somehow that combination worked out;

And wherever I was you were always around;

I’m sorry for all the promises I broke that let you down;

 

If I could, I’d take them all back right now;

And the mistakes I made;

No matter what I did you always treated me the same;

For that I’ll love you always;

 

Us meeting was more than just coincidence, it was fate;

Looking back now, it was God who sent you my way;

Life’s been unfair to both of us since our younger days;

We cried the same tears, even though I problems weren’t the same;

 

It’s the little things you used to do that occupied the biggest part of my heart;

You gave my life a brand new start;

Your heart is one of a kind, more precious than gold;

Things I knew but I never told;

 

I always took your friendship for granted and I’m so sorry;

Hindsight is always 20/20;

I was young and blind but now I see;

How much your friendship means to me;

 

For all the calls you made that I used to ignore;

I’m so regretful, how now I wish you’d call;

And the next time my phone rings it’s you on the other line;

But it never is and It makes me miss you like all the time;

 

You were there even before fame called my name;

When everybody said my poetry was lame and I’d never make it one day;

You still stuck around and never cared about what people had to say;

You told me I’ve got a gift from up above;

That I’ll change the world one day, you told me never to give up;

 

You were my biggest fan before I ever reached the world’s stage;

So I always told myself If I make it someday;

You’ll be the first one by my side;

Cause without you I wouldn’t want the spotlight;

 

People always judged us in our younger days;

Said we were bound to fail;

But those same people are the one’s who now hang onto every word I say;

Luckily I’ve lived long enough to spot the fakes;

 

Thank you for always being the you God made;

Even if at times you hated your silent ways;

If you ever changed who you really were we wouldn’t have been best friends today;

And I’d have ended my life, you are the reason I never chose to go that way;

 

Zano, you are more than just a friend, you are a brother to me;

Even though I’m no longer around like I used to be;

In my heart you are always close;

You are the best thing God did, for you I thank Him the most;

 

Do you remember the first poem I ever wrote;

It was to thank you for always being my friend;

“You are like the brother I never had, I wish I met you sooner maybe then my life wouldn’t have turned out this bad”, You always loved that one my friend;

So thank you for being there even when I hurt you so;

 

Thank you for never walking away or letting go;

Thank you for being there in good times and bad;

You are the best friend I ever had;

I thank God He made you, you might not mean much to other people;

 

But my friend you still mean more than this world to me.

 

Nigga you said you’d never leave my side;

Then why am I here alone speaking on this cold mic;

Telling those in front of me about the best times of your life;

I shouldn’t be doing this alone but now I’m forced too since you died;

 

Tears are rolling down my cheeks as I remember our good times;

I’m a man of many words yet this is so hard for me to explain;

My best friend passed and even though it wasn’t my fault,nigga I feel blamed;

You were always there my nigga and I never thought that would change;

 

I’m watching your mamma weep;

You always said she was the only reason you had to breathe;

I wish I was in Heaven now with you so I wasn’t forced to speak;

You always asked me to talk if you ever die before me;

 

My nigga, yes I admit I always agreed;

But I’m lost for words and my tears are blurring my written speech;

I never thought that this day would come;

That I’d have to live without you like the night does without the sun;

 

Regrets fill my mind as I remember the times when I never appreciated your presence;

How I wish I could take them back now that I’ve learnt about common sense;

You were always there when I had no one;

Now here I am again all alone;

 

I wish Heaven had a hotline;

So I could call you from time to time;

Or God could swap my gaurdian angel and make that guardian angel you;

Cause nobody else knew me like you knew me;

 

And as the service ends and everybody leaves;

I know that my pain will never fade and I’ll never find peace;

So I’ll pray to God that one day when it’s my time and I go;

That He sends you to come and fetch my soul;

 

I’m sorry I ever broke your precious heart,
And your innocent soul I tore apart;
But girl I never knew;
The one that God made for me was you;

How I took for granted your love everyday;
And now i miss that love struck look upon your face;
I never knew one day you’d ever walk away;
Or that I’d realise how much I loved you since that first day;

I miss you so much it’s more than the truth;
Or that the only love I’d never ever forget would be you;
No words could express how I feel inside;
I love you even more than before, although so much time has passed, I miss you being by my side;

Regrets like memories haunt me everyday within my mind;
I wish you knew girl how much I need you here tonight;
Maybe back then I should have made it clear;
Guess you never knew how much I really needed your love here;

I treated you so bad;
I blame it on all the past love I’ve had;
I know it was unfair towards you;
But I was just another blind fool;

But now that I realise a love like yours is so hard to find;
I wish I could love you just one more time;
Girl im so sorry for all those foolish lies;
That you pretended to believe but knew the truth all the time;

Now you’re so far away;
And you’ve found another man and reality has become a nightmare im forced to face;
God and I have this argument almost everyday;

Why was I so blind when He chose to send you my way;
I wish I did right by you;
Cause every girl since have been simple substitutes;
Trying to replace a love that they never could;

In other words girl I still miss you;
Things I never did or said when we were together, things that exposed the truth;
And the truth was that I’ve always loved you;
I wish you knew

The Lord will call my name one day;

When this time comes this is what I’d like someone to say;

Christopher came from nothing and made a way;

Not just another man but a friend who lived to be who God made;

Not for another man’s attention but he was himself to give God all praise;

 

Who not just lived for himself but gave his life to make a change;

Who left not just a memory in his life time;

But left a legacy behind;

 

A man who could have given up but refused;

When life got too hard and his heart was torn and abused;

Instead of showing hate;

He showed love to those who hurt him every day;

 

A man who refused to give up come what may;

Who lived to change not just himself but those he met along the way;

A boy who made so many mistakes;

But chose to use those mistakes to educate;

 

Many hated him for his brutal honesty;

Many a girl fell for his charm and words so sweet;

A man so young who accomplished what most wish;

Yet those who really knew him, knew he was so full of *ish;

 

For the wisdom he gave when people asked;

For the youth he helped escape their past;

For the times he made us laugh;

And for the tears we cry today because he has passed;

 

For a brother, lover and friend;

His legacy will never end;

For his strange ways;

For his love of 2pac and Thierry Henry and all those strange things he used to say;

Let’s take a moment to remember not just a person, but an angel God let escape;

Rest in Peace Christopher Mark Lincoln aka Kribo, thanks for the life you lived so the world could change;

 

We can’t wait to join you in Heaven some day.

 

We promised each other forever, so why am I left standing here without you?;

Girl you buried us too soon;

I’m stuck in this grave alive and alone missing you;

So tell me where did our forever’s go?;

 

If they are gone then why do I still miss you so?;

Did you make a mistake when you said we should go our separate ways?;

I never wanted to leave, I wanted a family with you someday;

At night I lay and think about your precious eyes;

 

And how they always took my heart by surprise;

I always thought that they were diamonds in disguise;

So can’t we get forever back just for a little while;

So I could appreciate you as if it were our last time;

 

I wasn’t prepared, so I took you for granted when you were mine;

If I could I’d do it different this time;

My eyes have opened and finally I’ve come to realise;

That my life without you is like a clock without the hands of time;

 

So girl can’t we get our forever’s back just one more time?

Some songs I hear;

Take me back to our years;

Even though my soul is left behind and when I return to reality I find you’re no longer here;

Do you remember the first time sweet love we made?;

 

Or when I picked you up from school every day;

And that love struck look upon your face;

Do you remember our first kiss in the park?;

How nervous we both were sitting in my car?;

 

Or that day in church when our eyes met and I wondered who you are;

And how fate lead me past your house and we met eye to eye again from afar?;

I still believe you are the one that God made just for me;

And I wish you were the only one I loved instead of the girl before you and me;

 

She damaged me, so loving you became an impossibility;

I wish I told you the truth instead of pretending;

And when you loved me all I gave you was hurt within;

I know if I did;

 

You’d still be here with me;

See I remember all those things you thought I forgot;

I remember all the pain I put you through;

I remember it every day ever since I lost you;

 

I wish so much I could forget but I just never seem to;

Truth is 20.09.90 I still miss you

 

Who knew I used to choose my friends above you;

Yet today here I sit alone in my room;

Thinking how I was such a fool;

Wasting all that time when I could have been loving you;

 

If you saw me today you’d probably laugh;

A regretful man wishing to be free from regrets of my past;

I ask God why could I not have met you today;

He knows we would have made it last;

 

In my eyes we ended too fast;

Our love story’s credits rolled far too soon;

I wasn’t ready for the story to end and for me to lose you;

I wish you knew;

 

I’m tempted daily to send these words to you;

But I know you’ve already found someone new;

So what’s the use?;

I guess I’ll keep it in and cherish good memories spent with you;

 

God only knows I’d do anything to have another chance to love you

 

I was asked today If my feelings for you have changed;

I replied that true love never fades;

So my love for you will always remain;

I admit the person who asked me I didn’t expect it in any way;

 

But I had to be honest cause that’s how I feel even If you don’t feel the same;

She asked If I know you’ve had a child that’s estranged;

I replied “yes” but that my feelings still stayed the same;

Regardless, you were my first love and that love will never go away;

 

At times I wish you still felt the same;

So we could start again;

Now that we are both wiser in life;

I’d love you better this time and make you my wife;

 

I once made you my fiancée but it fell through;

This time I’d do it right, never let you down or even out of my sight;

I’d make sure to fulfil your every need;

Some say I’m crazy;

 

But they’ve never loved you so how could they dictate to me;

I love you girl, even though you’ve hurt me deeply;

True love never keeps records of wrongs, it’s written in the bible, so that’s what I believe;

I wish you asked me these questions and not your niece;

 

If you did I wouldn’t think twice about rushing to your side;

And making you the only women in my life