Archives for November 15, 2013

(Dedicated to returnofthered)

Today you were heavy on my mind;

Try to pretend but your struggles are the same as mine;

Why is life a struggle then you die;

Questions I ask, I stay high just to maintain;

Looking for inspiration in bottles and lines;

Life constantly in the fast lane; Drinking just to subside my pain;

Nobody understand cause they haven’t been scarred this way;

This one is dedicated to my nigga “returnofthered”; Stay true , the world ain’t ready for you yet;

God has His own time, I’ve been doing this since 2001;

Never accept no my nigga, do you and never imitate anyone;

Do like me and switch the world out and put 2pac on;

That’s where I get all my inspiration from;

Find the gift God gave you before you were born and your mamma called you son;

Cultivate it and make it your passion; Follow your passion and it will lead to your purpose;

Then you will know why you were destined to walk this earth;

My nigga I feel your pain, I’ve been cursed since birth;

Alcohol and drugs are a motivation, it don’t determine your worth;

Don’t let them control you, use it to your advantage; Let them set your mind free;

And you will be able to write as epic as me;

I’ve been there so I understand your struggle;

Let your addiction work for you that way you avoid trouble;

You will make a difference;

You only need one understanding ear too listen;

I feel you, my ears are open, so never let the world see you sweat;

They put me down every single day but I made it without them;

Those who never cared now chase me;

So listen to what I am saying, you’re a thug, an O’g;

So my nigga just stay true; Be the best you;

If you need a hand, mind will always be open just for you

Remembering hood days with my niggas surviving the streets;

Drinking cheap liquor underneath park trees;

When life was stress free;

Simple days when friends were friends and not enemies who claimed to be;

 

When fights were with fists, not with guns or knives;

Where we fought for respect and not to end another nigga’s life;

Before we had money , cars and the finer things;

When our only transport was hiking or taxi’s;

 

Before drugs became an enemy between friends;

When we all were niggas and didn’t pretend;

Before facebook and whatsapp caused lovers to cheat;

When love wasn’t just a game but a fairytale story;

 

I miss the days where women had standards and told you when she was done with you;

Not having to have to read body language and assume;

I miss those days of drinking during breaks in highschool;

When hooking up with a girl was easy to do;

 

But life changed and change too fast;

Wishing I can go back and skip regrets so I can today be free of my past;

Spend more time with my nigga’s who died in a hurry;

And chose to relocate to the cemetery without me;

 

I wish I could rewind time;

And relive my past days but with my present mind state;

Not to change but just improve the mistakes I’ve made;

I’d just want to enjoy them more then I did back in the day;

 

I regret nothing,struggles were the reason for who I became;

I just miss my childhood innocence that was stolen away;

This mind, I wish I could take it back in time;

Same knowledge I’ve gained, so I can unbreak the hearts of those I left in pain;

 

Like that white dude I killed because he was full of race hate;

It wasn’t his fault, he was taught to be that way;

And that nigga I robbed for a stupid 3310;

I just hope today he changed his heart and I’m finally forgiven;

 

I want to undo the broken hearts I left behind;

That girl I promised forever but just used her for a night;

Babygirl I apologise for my selfish way;

I was too young to understand the damaged I caused until I was done the same;

 

I want to uplift the youth I lead astray;

Instead of bieng an example I showed them the wrong way;

How to drink and smoke thier pain away;

My young nigga’s that is not the way it’s only a temporary band-aid;

 

I know i can’t return;

And reverse all the hurt;

But I’m going to help those young niggas who are still to come;

Make them wise early with words of truth unheard;

 

Words never die even when I pass and I’m covered by cemetry dirt;

I want to make the youth soldiers from birth;

So they can have the life I never had and they can have the life they deserve

 

Mr Niteman;

I thought let me holla at you since you stuck with me before I was a grown man;

You are more than my brother, I consider you part of my fam;

I’m your biggest fan;

 

Now the world knows my feelings and you know where I stand;

I know your pain, I’ve been there so my nigga I can relate, I understand;

She left you broken and stole your kids;

Don’t worry holla at me I’ll supply all you need;

 

She is too young to understand, my nigga you mean more than gold to me;

I see your angel wings;

Now that I made it, you never have to want anything;

Just ask and you’ll own everything;

 

Life has seperated us but you will be my nigga even when I’m old;

You were there before I had anything, stayed real even when I was broke;

You are my homie;

Stuck around before the world knew me;

 

We spent so much time drinking;

You knew exatcly what I was thinking;

You are stiched like a tattoo on my heart;

I loved you right from the start;

 

Rynel “Niteman” Classen;

If we die I pray we die together and meet Dru in passing;

People don’t get us, we’re nigga’s, it’s too deep for human understanding;

So even though we are far apart;

 

You are too close to me so in my mind we are always together;

Ride and die forever;

You were there for me through any kind of weather;

This is my promise to you;

 

“Smeer me and I smeer you”, I remember those words, they remind me of you;

So as I move up me move up as one, cause when I had nobody my nigga you stayed true;

I can’t pay you back for all the years, but this is my gift back to you.