Archives for November 2013

I’m just a dreamer trying to change the world one heart at a time;

Let that act as a domino effect changing what I can before my demise;

I want to educate youth about life;

That’s what they need when school comes to an end;

 

I wish they would have lessons on life in school, but they have gym instead;

Surviving life is the most important lesson;

But we lead our youth blindly and when they fall we look at them with questions;

The change starts young, for me it’s too late;

 

So I want the next generation to live the right way;

We need to stop pointing fingers when we are to blame;

They are too young to know about life’s abuse;

So it’s up to me and you;

 

I want the elderly to give classes on wisdom to our youth;

So they are well equipped to face life’s hidden traps;

I wish people could see my point of view instead of just sitting back;

I wish rich people could swap lives with poor people and swap back every week;

 

So we can understand another man’s struggle and not turn away the man begging on the corner of the street;

I wish a damaged heart;

That’s been broken and scared by the past;

Can be given to young girls so they understand the consequences of love and don’t have to ask;

 

Then swap back their hearts so they understand the damage caused by a one night stand;

So they aren’t curious but feel and understand;

I wish I could give my memories to all the young boys who think cheating is cool;

So they feel how it feels when the same is done to you;

 

I want them to understand the results of Karma;

So they think twice before enduring the drama;

I want the youth to understand;

When you mess up in life, there’s no second chance;

 

By your choices you fall or stand;

Having a beard, money and a car doesn’t make you a real man;

Making babies doesn’t make you a dad;

I want to give them responsibility so they don’t fall into debt;

 

So they understand the pressure and never forget;

Before I die this is what I want to see;

But I’m just a dreamer, but I’ll do my best before the Lord calls me;

So in Heaven I can rest in peace, knowing I left behind not just a memory, but a legacy

It’s been over a year since last I saw you;

I pretend I don’t miss you but girl I do;

When by chance we meet in passing I act like I don’t notice you and play it cool;

When inside I hope you’ll greet;

 

I try and act strong when my knees are weak;

And I stumble over my own feet;

I wonder if you really don’t care or like me you’re just pretending;

When you see me by chance does your heart also skip a beat;

 

Or have I faded like a bad memory;

Do my actions fool you?;

Or can you see right through;

Is my mask coming apart at the seams?;

 

Or can you see the broken heart I wear on my sleeve?;

Are you holding him and wishing he was me?;

Cause while I’m with her it’s you I see;

Does he also know your heart is in another place;

 

Cause I’m sure she knows mine is, it’s written all over my face;

Do you try and dial my number when it should be erased?;

I sometimes dial yours even though I know your number changed;

I stay out all night trying to drink my pain away;

 

Do you also come home at sunrise;

Feeling more alone even though you partied all night?;

Do we also meet in your dreams and you cry when you wake;

These are the things I wonder when by chance we meet;

 

Do you also pretend or are you really over me….

We were just friends at first;

I never planned to fall for her;

You were always my one and only girl;

I was just returning her ways of flirt;

 

She gave me the attention you never did;

She always answers my calls;

The calls you chose to ignore;

Where you left holes she filled the gap;

 

I’m not making excuses, i’m only stating facts

I was wrong I understand that;

But I’m just a man, I was giving you love but you never loved me back;

Everytime I tried to make time;

 

You were always too busy, all those excuses you made;

Eventually the love we had started to fade;

I know I should have told you, but you didn’t want to hear what I had to say;

I’m not the cheating type, I’ve never been that way;

 

We never did anything yet before your imagination runs away;

The empty space you left inside me she replaced;

I’m sorry if I hurt you, it was an unintentional mistake;

I see the tears running down the side of your face;

 

But girl you neglected me every other day;

Love can’t grow if it’s left up to one;

It takes two to make any bond;

I couldn’t keep it alive on my own;

 

We can try again, everyone makes mistakes when they are in love;

You reply and that your tears are not my fault;

Confused, “How do you mean?” I ask;

You reply “I was cheating all along”;

 

My heart instantly tore apart;

You say you wanted to tell me but you just didn’t have the heart;

You were hoping I’d read the signs;

Thinking back, I knew, but my love for you had made me blind;

 

I should have listened to my instincts, they have always been right;

So as you turn and walk away, I promise myself next time to end it when I see these same signs.

Keith “Kat” Van Rooi;

Do you remember how we used to roll and nigga’s we destroyed;

When we had nothing we were forced to live “Thug Life” cause we were unemployed;

You saved my life so many times;

I never told you but I owe you my life;

 

Remember that night you spine busted my enemy on the tar road;

I’m famous cause of the seedling you let grow;

My soul died that night those cowards stabbed you and tried to end your life;

I heard the news and rushed to the hospital to be by your side;

 

In my car praying to God asking to let you surive this time;

Short in size but so is dynamite;

You’re fearless at heart, true hood soldier, never scared to fight;

You were there even before I made it;

 

So now I am here to give you your share of fame;

You never threw me aside no matter what shit came;

You are my nigga and it will always remain;

Ride and die until the Lord calls your name;

 

Friends I only have a few,

I call them brothers and that’s what I call you;

When they all walked away you still stayed true;

You are like the brother I never had, thank God everyday He sent a guardian Angel called you;

 

Don’t give up, our better days finally came;

All those days we hustled just to get some cash;

Are now just a bad memory in the past;

We never have to beg for anything;

 

My nigga we made it and you are the reason;

Just hold on for a little while;

Tomorrow is coming soon, life will never again be able to steal your smile;

You were there when nobody cared;

 

So now my fame is our fame, time to collect your share

(Dedicated to returnofthered)

Today you were heavy on my mind;

Try to pretend but your struggles are the same as mine;

Why is life a struggle then you die;

Questions I ask, I stay high just to maintain;

Looking for inspiration in bottles and lines;

Life constantly in the fast lane; Drinking just to subside my pain;

Nobody understand cause they haven’t been scarred this way;

This one is dedicated to my nigga “returnofthered”; Stay true , the world ain’t ready for you yet;

God has His own time, I’ve been doing this since 2001;

Never accept no my nigga, do you and never imitate anyone;

Do like me and switch the world out and put 2pac on;

That’s where I get all my inspiration from;

Find the gift God gave you before you were born and your mamma called you son;

Cultivate it and make it your passion; Follow your passion and it will lead to your purpose;

Then you will know why you were destined to walk this earth;

My nigga I feel your pain, I’ve been cursed since birth;

Alcohol and drugs are a motivation, it don’t determine your worth;

Don’t let them control you, use it to your advantage; Let them set your mind free;

And you will be able to write as epic as me;

I’ve been there so I understand your struggle;

Let your addiction work for you that way you avoid trouble;

You will make a difference;

You only need one understanding ear too listen;

I feel you, my ears are open, so never let the world see you sweat;

They put me down every single day but I made it without them;

Those who never cared now chase me;

So listen to what I am saying, you’re a thug, an O’g;

So my nigga just stay true; Be the best you;

If you need a hand, mind will always be open just for you

Remembering hood days with my niggas surviving the streets;

Drinking cheap liquor underneath park trees;

When life was stress free;

Simple days when friends were friends and not enemies who claimed to be;

 

When fights were with fists, not with guns or knives;

Where we fought for respect and not to end another nigga’s life;

Before we had money , cars and the finer things;

When our only transport was hiking or taxi’s;

 

Before drugs became an enemy between friends;

When we all were niggas and didn’t pretend;

Before facebook and whatsapp caused lovers to cheat;

When love wasn’t just a game but a fairytale story;

 

I miss the days where women had standards and told you when she was done with you;

Not having to have to read body language and assume;

I miss those days of drinking during breaks in highschool;

When hooking up with a girl was easy to do;

 

But life changed and change too fast;

Wishing I can go back and skip regrets so I can today be free of my past;

Spend more time with my nigga’s who died in a hurry;

And chose to relocate to the cemetery without me;

 

I wish I could rewind time;

And relive my past days but with my present mind state;

Not to change but just improve the mistakes I’ve made;

I’d just want to enjoy them more then I did back in the day;

 

I regret nothing,struggles were the reason for who I became;

I just miss my childhood innocence that was stolen away;

This mind, I wish I could take it back in time;

Same knowledge I’ve gained, so I can unbreak the hearts of those I left in pain;

 

Like that white dude I killed because he was full of race hate;

It wasn’t his fault, he was taught to be that way;

And that nigga I robbed for a stupid 3310;

I just hope today he changed his heart and I’m finally forgiven;

 

I want to undo the broken hearts I left behind;

That girl I promised forever but just used her for a night;

Babygirl I apologise for my selfish way;

I was too young to understand the damaged I caused until I was done the same;

 

I want to uplift the youth I lead astray;

Instead of bieng an example I showed them the wrong way;

How to drink and smoke thier pain away;

My young nigga’s that is not the way it’s only a temporary band-aid;

 

I know i can’t return;

And reverse all the hurt;

But I’m going to help those young niggas who are still to come;

Make them wise early with words of truth unheard;

 

Words never die even when I pass and I’m covered by cemetry dirt;

I want to make the youth soldiers from birth;

So they can have the life I never had and they can have the life they deserve