Archives for January 14, 2014

Even Thugs Fall

Never thought I’d meet a Morning star in my life;

Or understand a father’s daughter bieng the apple of his eye;

Today I met an Angel that escaped from Heaven’s sky;

I wonder if God sent you cause He heard my heart’s cry;



See I’ve done love all wrong and all right;

But it always failed no matter how hard I seemed to try;

So I gave up on finding the love of my life;

But it’s always been weighing heavy on my mind;



See I’ve lived my life as an outlaw and thug;

Never caring about finding true love;

But as time passed by I’ve grown up;

And my soul is in need of some comfort;



But I’ve been damged so that I find it hard to trust;

And so I’ve rolled solo never looking to make me an “us”;

But today after meeting you I’ve found that no matter what and after it all;

That girl, sometimes even Thugs fall



How do you say sorry when your heart knows you’re the one to blame?
How do you reverse the tears that you forced upon her beautiful face?
How do you erase the hurtful memories you engraved upon her mind;
How can you undo the hurt if you can’t rewind the hands of time?

I’ve tried to pray, but they just come back marked “return to sender” bouncing off Heaven’s gates;
I’ve tried to play it off in hopes she’d forget but she reminds me like every day;
I try to walk away but I just can’t find an escape;
I’m followed by the remnants of yesterday;

So I turn to those worldly things I know;
Hennessy and blessed lines just to calm my soul;
You think you have an idea nigga, but you don’t know;
Life’s road feels the same every day no matter how far you go;

Try and hit U-turns in life just to escape, but it shows me a new road every time like an updated GPS;
It’s like a journey you endure but in the end you fail the quest;
Life’s like a puzzle with a missing piece, a f*cking mess;
Or like the freedom of free falling but dying in the decent;

How do I forget the pain of constant regret?;
How do I avoid the mistakes I still haven’t met?
These are the questions I ask, but no one has been able to answer me yet…

From My Past

There’s something on my mind I’d like you to know;

True love never dies even if you chose to go;

It’s been years but within my heart it just seemed to grow;

I know I messed up girl, but I was too young to know;


I never knew about love, I was so used to bitches and one night stands;

When I found you I was still a player and not yet a man;

But things have changed and now I finally understand;

Could you consider giving us another chance?;


If it’s too late girl don’t be afraid to break my heart;

My hearts used to being torn apart;

Just be honest and that would be more than enough;

If you don’t feel the same as me and you’ve lost the love;


I know I let you down more times than I could count;

And I broke your heart and instilled never ending doubt;

I know I betrayed so many times your trust;

But I’ve grown and I know I can make a better us;


I’m sorry for all the nights I left you drowning in tears;

And I’m sorry for all the times you said you loved me that I didn’t want to hear;

I’m sorry for putting my friends before you and I;

And I’m sorry for leaving you alone all those nights;


I miss that old school kind of love that’s almost impossible to find;

When a girl loved me unconditionally all the time;

When I didn’t need money or fancy cars;

She just wanted me no matter who I was;


All I’ve found now days are games people call love;

I didn’t know the rules so I was taken advantage of;

I’ve been broken, bruised and used ever since us;

I’ve been given back all those tears I made you cry;

And I’ve been fed those same lies I fed you once upon a time;


Now I’ve had a lot of girls in my lifetime;

So I know it’s not that I’m just stuck on you and I;

It must be true love, cause since us another girl like you I have yet to find;

The love you gave me was like a legacy, one of a kind;


The last girl I had was karma paying me back;

For all the times I hurt you and treated you bad;

She did to me like I did to you, I never knew how I hurt you till I felt that same pain;

Now that I know I wish I never did you that way;


But when a man’s blind and it’s too late;

What does he do when he finds out but doesn’t have the power to go back in time to enforce change?

Time moves forward, yet every day I wish it was like PVR and I could go back to that first day;

With what I know now because if I could I’d have never let you slip away;


I’d appreciate every second with you as if it were the last;

If I could you still be here and not someone I miss from my past